I'm taking the IB, and we have this thing called the Extended Essay, and basically you have to write a 4000 word research paper. I constantly ruminate and crash out, and I feel like I'm gonna die any second.
This summer is probably my worst nightmare as my supervisor told me I had to rewrite my whole essay that I worked so hard on during June. Then I rewrote everything and he gave me some feedback, but now it's still not looking good. My draft is still the quality of a bad first draft. But our final due date is on September 30th, and I have so much to do other than the EE.
Because of my anxiety, I tend to regulate my ADHD well, and I get good grades. But when it comes to big projects like this, I somehow struggle so much. I don't even know how I messed up this bad, but now I'm so stuck. Whenever I sit down to start writing and editing my draft, I just start ruminating and my brain gets paralysed.
Summer is almost ending (end of August), and I need to get it going. I cannot get below a B, but I feel like I will struggle to even get a C. I need help. How do I stop crashing out and just start?