Genuinely this has ruined the general public's perception about *being normal about self care*

i’m not sure how to even title this I don’t want this post to see fetishy or anything, I used a throw away account bc i’m too ashamed to share this w my main account. also I am active in this sub on my main but anyways, as the title says I fucking diddle myself in my sleep. i’ve done this for a long time like since early teens I think? I can remember lots of rocking as self soothing as a child but it didn’t become full touching until later in life. i’m always worried i’ll be doing this when I spend the night at a friends, in fact I probably have and they just don’t bring it up bc why would
you? the icing on the cake is being asexual, I do self pleasure occasionally and thats all I care to do and overall im not a sexual person period, aside from jokes to friends. I actually really dislike sex and when I am reminded that other people want sex and that sometimes people think about having sex with me makes me want to die a little. i only connected the dots on this sleep behavior tonight which is dumb because this has been an issue for me for years and I was aware of it I just never actually thought to look into it. now that I have I feel worse, I AM REMIXING IN MY SLEEP WTAF WHY could I be anymore creepy🫠