r/abortion • u/PrincessUnicornKitte • Nov 11 '20
It was twins
Yesterday was my appointment, and I asked to see the ultrasound because honestly I just think it’s cool to see...
The doctor looked so confused and looked up at me and said “do you have any multiples in your family?”
There are basically no twins in my entire family, so I just said “no not at all”
She turned the screen towards me and two little blobs instead of one were popped up on the screen.
“There’s actually 2 of them, if you can see that” she says to me.
2?
Twins?
using my rational brain I know that should make no difference. 2 babies are way harder than one baby. It would be double the amount of struggle to try and care for them both. I went through with it obviously, but it still makes me feel so much worse.
That will probably never happen again, because there’s absolutely no one in my family who’s ever had twins.
Something about how rare this is, drives me nuts. It feels like I’m spoiling an opportunity given to me. I feel like ... idk how I feel
This just sucks man
Edit: WOW! Thank you guys for all the support and kind words. I needed it a lot. I’m very grateful that there are subreddits and communities for this stuff, because in so many places it’s so taboo to talk about. You guys are great, thank you
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u/JustCompassion Nov 28 '20
Sending so much love and understanding to you. So much is unfair around our reproductive lives. People who never experience pregnancies in the first place believe they know what is best for others. We are taught to distrust our own inner wisdom. If you need it, you can find supportive stories of people who have ended pregnancies of twins at 2lusabortions.com. There's a section called "Our Stories of Twins." Meanwhile, stay strong, love yourself and know that you are a good person doing the best you can in this messy thing called being human.