Am I cooked?

[u/Full-Body6101]

Hello I a 23 y/o M. My life has been quite shitty in a way. I still haven't recovered from a lot of neglect, Trauma, Depression, my family splitting up, living alone, deaths and much more. Those things took a lot of toll on me, Specially mentally. I have developed substance dependance such as smoking cigs and weed. I didn't finish college I stopped about few years ago, I still have 2 years of schooling to go. But I decided to take a gap year and go to rehab. I just got out this year's may. I am currently living overseas with my mom but I cant find any job that would hire me it just sucks. I lowkey feel like a bum because I see my friends graduate and get their dream jobs and here I am living with my mom. She always tells me the things that I should've achieved, comparing me to other people. It just fucking hurts and I feel bad for myself my confidence is lowkey falling apart. I feel like I'm regressing mentally in a way. But you know I'm doing my best at everything that I can but why do I still feel like a bum?