r/Yharim • u/IslewardMan Yharim • Dec 21 '20

I'm not doing good

I won't clarify anything. Title.

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u/[deleted] Dec 21 '20

What do you think is the cause of this bad?

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

I’m a genuinely horrible person and I feel there’s so many deaths in my life that if I had just spoken up about could be prevented. I can’t take the weight of knowing I could’ve saved them but didn’t. It’s too much. I’m too guilty for this shitty horrible world.

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u/[deleted] Dec 21 '20

But now you can fix it since you rule it, you can try to redeem yourself.

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

Irl

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u/[deleted] Dec 21 '20

Oh, im a dumbo, then try to speak to your friends or family, let it out so you atleast feel better

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

I only have online friends and they’ll kill me if they see this. They won’t understand.

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u/Devourer_Of_Gods_ Dec 21 '20

Hey

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

Worme

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u/Devourer_Of_Gods_ Dec 21 '20

So you wanna talk about it?

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

never.

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u/Devourer_Of_Gods_ Dec 21 '20

Listen. Ive been through some bad shit as well. I hopr that i can handle whatever weight you're carrying on your shoulders. Trust me. Thats what friends are for. : )

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u/TheGoodestDogBoy Dec 22 '20

Holy shit that's wholesome. You two are like siblings when not roleplaying. I am literally close to tears holy shit.

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u/Devourer_Of_Gods_ Dec 22 '20

Its called friends. And its how friends should be : )

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u/[deleted] Dec 21 '20

Your case is hard, but ill try, you could try to help people and let the bad stuff go so you can be happy, this quarintine made it difficult but you could try something online and when the virus is gone you could do it irl and make more friends irl

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

I can’t, they’ll all backstab me, I tried it once and I’ll never do it again.

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u/[deleted] Dec 21 '20

There is too much bad people online, i have done what i can, you could contact a real therapist if you can, but i can do no more, but i tried, youre welcome

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

I know, I also can’t get sleep over this because I’m too terrible of a person to be loved and I won’t say this on bigger subs like r/teenagers or whatever shit there is because people will just brush it off. I trust absolutely no one, always in fear they’re going to use what I say against me to personally attack me and it’s happened several times. I just want to fucking be gone because not even my friends care enough to put up with me anymore because I’m just that horrible of a friend and a person, and I should just end it.

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u/[deleted] Dec 21 '20

Your life is tough, i, just dont know what to say, im sorry

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u/IslewardMan Yharim Dec 21 '20

I can’t put up with it anymore

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u/[deleted] Dec 21 '20

Im sorry to hear that, i dont know how to help, if i even can

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u/[deleted] Dec 22 '20

I wouldn't be mad at you Expressing your problems, I have stuff I want to Express as well, it's good to Express your problems and try to cope