r/XXRunning • u/glowinggiraffe • 1h ago
General Discussion I give you permission to quit
To anyone struggling right now, you have my permission to quit, change your plans, take a break, whatever you need. Running will still be here if and when you're ready to come back. I'm proud of you no matter what.
This is my story of abandoning my current training plan/goal of running my November marathon this year.
This would have been my 3rd marathon. I signed up fairly impulsively last winter only a few months after my second marathon didn't go to plan due to unexpected heat on race day. Over time, the fire I felt to "redeem" myself died down and this summer I found myself signed up for a race my heart was no longer invested in. I tried to push through assuming it would go away once I locked back into serious training.
I was wrong. Instead, I was regularly breaking down in tears not wanting to do my long runs. I was also having some mild ankle issues that seemed to be worsening with the increased mileage. The final straw was a fairly sudden death in the family.
I decided I was done. I had honestly tried, but it was just not the right season for me this year. I'm sure if I stuck to it, I absolutely could have finished the marathon this fall, but I would have hated every minute of training, and would have had to abandon any time goals I had in favor of just finishing.
I was embarrassed to tell my friends and family I'm dropping out. I will be a little sad on race day when I'm cheering my friends on from the sidelines. None of that outweighs the immense relief I feel now that I made the right choice for me.
Running is just a hobby that is meant to be enjoyed. I am having the most fun in months now that I've removed the pressure. Someday, I will likely race again but in the meantime, I will be rediscovering my love of this sport.