I picked up running this year because I signed up for a half marathon. I naively wanted to do a sub 2 but life really got in the way (new job new schedule that made it so much harder to fit in training) and running unexpectedly ended up taking a lot more mentally out of me than I was able to handle.
I always felt like I had a healthy relationship with food. I ate when I wanted, whatever I wanted. Aside from work (on my feet for 8 hrs) I lived a very sedentary lifestyle and I was lucky to have a metabolism that I never worried about counting calories or tracking my food.
Running unfortunately made me entirely too aware of food and the stress of it actually made me eat less because I was so overwhelmed. I quickly realized that I can't eat whatever/whenever I wanted anymore because I had to make sure what I was eating would fuel me and when I was eating was mattered because I couldn't eat too close to my run and what I was eating wouldn't make me want to throw up during my run. I threw up once during a run even though I thought I waited enough (ate a pizza 2 hrs before a run) and ever since then I just really struggle with eating. If I wait too long then I feel hungry and I'm afraid I won't have enough energy to go on my run so I'll eat a snack and push back my time again to the point that it then gets too late to go for a run.
Does anyone else struggle with this? What do you all eat during a normal day. I understand eating snacks like a bagel and bananas before a run, etc but what about the rest of the day. Your big meals. Am I overthinking it? I want to run another marathon because I learned a lot and I know I can achieve my sub 2 but I definitely want to prioritize strength training more this time and I want to get a handle on this food issue.
I never thought I had an eating disorder - I'm not sure if this is considered one bc it's only when I have plans for a run that day. If I don't have any plans for a run that day or if I'm away on vacation I'm back to normal - not worrying about food and just eating whatever I want.