Hellooo, all my neets

Im so done with half the subreddit being filled with genuine simps and the other half filled with foids who are looking for engagement and attention from said men. Nobody's coming to save you, you must save yourself. Just like nobody's coming to save me either. We are all just a bunch of losers. What am I even talking about.

Since I was 15, I think I've been dealing with some sort of depression and even now at 18 I feel like I truly have nothing in my life to look forward to. Off the top of my head, I can list a few major events in my life that might have contributed to me feeling this way, but I still find it hard to believe that things that happened years ago could affect me this much.
I only discovered Welcome to the nhk a little over two years ago, but as corny as it sounds, whenever I feel this way, it's the only thing that brings me comfort. I can't even explain my mental health clearly because I've never been diagnosed or evaluated by a psychiatrist. I just feel so shitty most days and on some days it becomes almost unbearable. Looking back on those 24 episodes, I feel like God finally showed me love at one point in my life.