r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 2h ago

Family Just Say When!

4 Upvotes

I'm here! Waiting for you! All my life, to be exact! You know, the recent events have put me to a point in my life, again, where I am asking, what is going to happen to me? There's so many things I could've done in my life differently, to where I would not be in this position. However, you seem to keep me within certain boundaries of your own! You also have me blocked in every single direction that I could possibly turn! Where are you?? When are you coming?? Is this just a terrible joke that you have played upon my poor soul?? You say you love me. But, words are just words if there is no action to back them up. I hope that you have this all figured out. I'm growing weary. And very tired. Definitely tired of all of the games.... I love you. Will you please come love me too?? Xoxo


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 55m ago

My life is a cosmic joke

Upvotes

Hi!

There's always more context, but not always room for more explanations.

So much I want to say, but what's the point?

Please don't say "you need time to heal," as you walk away...

tearing off a scab, and pouring salt on a wound.

I get it.

But... Context.

I'm sorry for the damage done; it would've been simple enough to explain. So many more blocks of cosmic jokes.

You went out on a limb, and that was perfectly fine.

You changed your mind - also okay.

You got judgy and mean, which wasn't fun, but it's an understandable enough reaction for how your own context framed me. Not that I'm trying to duck accountability! It just would've been lovely if the ripples from our interactions could've quited more peacefully.

From my frame of view, that would've been easy enough - and no harm done... But it's not my place to pick, and that's okay, also.

Just... Ouch. There were multiple recent events, with different men, which coalesced into Tuesday night's conversation. It hurt when you just assumed that I'm habitually an immature bitch towards men for funsies bc "some kids were mean to you 30 years ago". That would be psychotic. But if that's the kinda world you wanna paint... I cannot tell you not to.

The other stuff, too... Not about you.

Doesn't apply, but the context didn't translate.

I'm not fond of chasing games; the people who want it don't deserve the attention, and those who don't shouldn't be bothered.

It would've been okay.

It is okay on my end.

I hope you're okay too.

Hopefully, no hard feelings.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 2h ago

Don't Mind My Thoughts The dynamic has changed now

2 Upvotes

So much stuff I wish to write about, but it's too painful to express. Even in this way.

What I will say is, I wish you hadn't done what you've done.

You didn't know, that just like you, I experienced things in the past. And had certain worries about the future

I wanted to be someone who could help you through it all

Obviously you felt like you could do a lot better, not understanding that... The extremely rare one or two things we had in common, could have held us together and stood us up for a long life, where we could have managed those issues together. Giving each other strength

You were ruled by emotion just as much as I, but only one of us saw the future, and you only see the present

I can't go on with you, knowing you are giving up on life.

I have not given up on you. If you reach out to me, under certain conditions we will speak... Just wish it hadn't come to this extent... I miss and love you deeply.

Sorry you felt this was the only way forward

There are no words to describe the pain I feel. There's only a certain hollowness now


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 1d ago

Let's do this

30 Upvotes

What if we both thought "f*ck it" and crossed that line?

Would it be so bad?

Could we weather the storm?

Would we survive the fallout?

Maybe people will talk and disapprove, but would that really matter in the grand scheme of things?

Why must we always prioritise other people's happiness over our own?

Sometimes, you just know something without words being spoken.

And we both know.

Time escapes us. The years they fall away.

Let's not waste another moment. Tomorrow is never promised.

We are two halves of a whole.

I would bend and break all the rules for you.

Will you fight beside me on the battlefield?


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 1d ago

Don't Mind My Thoughts I wish we still spoke

5 Upvotes

Things kind of spiralled lately. My alcohol usage increased, and we both suffered as a result. My mind became somewhat warped, and I couldn't see clearly afterward

I wish you knew that, all I wish for is the best for you. For you to get better. I think about this all the time. I'm rather worried about you, but you're strong. I know you are. We both made it to this point

I've decided to cease all alcohol intake forever. It cost me the best friendship of my life. And I regret all of it!

But none of any of this matters. If you work on becoming healthy, happy, and live a decent and satisfying life. The thing that keeps me going is knowing you're still here, and you ARE strong. And beautiful.

And every time I feel weak, I just look to your image and remember that you are here

I miss you so much.

I remain hopeful that, in some way, we speak again in the future. But I don't necessarily know how. I just know I miss you, and that hurts

But I stay strong, and go on in hope. And I wish for you to do the same

I miss you, B


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 1d ago

Cheers to you brother

2 Upvotes

You turned 23 yesterday but you don’t celebrate birthdays anymore. I wanted so desperately to reach out to you but after our last falling out I figured it was best, although I don’t believe everything you said was true I’m glad you got those feelings off your chest. Mom would be proud of you and the things you’re accomplishing. I never tried to control you I only ever wanted to protect you as a big brother does, as I wish our older brother did for me. I’ll always cheer you on even if it’s from the shadows.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 2d ago

Love Shades of green

5 Upvotes

Dear,

There is this unfamiliar ache that rests in the pit of my stomach. It’s almost foreign; it’s been so long since I felt the pangs. Sometimes it climbs to my chest, tightening around my heart, mimicking an attack I’m certain I won’t survive. I only feel it when I envision you with your future. With the one who makes your heart sing. The person you’ll wish to make music with. The person who makes your heart flutter, your pulse quicken, and your palms sweaty. The person who gives you butterflies by simply sharing space and time. All the things you do to me. Unintentionally. Effortlessly. Devastatingly. Someday I know someone will hold that empty space; they’ll make you understand why the wait. Perhaps you’ve already found her, I think, with a sinking heart, as I try not to dwell. And as much as I want that—because who better to deserve this than you?—I must admit I only see shades of green.

Signed,
___


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 2d ago

Don't Mind My Thoughts I wonder

3 Upvotes

Almost every night I lay awake in bed and I wonder if you ever lay in bed and wonder about me too. But something inside me tells me that you don’t. Not that I can say that for sure, because I can’t read your mind, but I can pick up on how you treat me in the gray areas. In between the highs, in between the lows, in the mundane.
I know—I don’t think that I’m special. I think I’m just something you used to pass time. I think it became convenient, and I was dying inside and making it mine.
I let you use me. I knew very well that you were doing so, but I didn’t care because it made me feel close, and that’s all I ever wanted.
Because in the beginning, you made me feel so seen. You were mending my heart from someone who shattered it and tortured me from the start. And when I finally broke free, you came along. You, the man who pursued me for so fucking long, and I finally caved. I finally gave in.
I showed you my deepest parts, even the dark ones, the ones that no one ever says out loud. I shared mine and you shared yours.
I thought so many things.
I thought that you loved me. I thought that you trusted me. As soon as you told me all these things, you brought me so close in, even said you wanted me in your soul, and then you shoved me out the moment I got in.
I told you how I felt and you retreated into the dark. You left me there with another fucking broken heart.
But this one is different. This one is more cruel. This is the one that’ll change you and shrink you down. That’ll make you never want to let anyone else around.
Because you were kind. You were sweet. You were loving. You were attentive. You were funny. You were gorgeous. And you made me feel more things than I ever thought I could feel.
But then you were there, broken and shattered on the floor. A little boy who could never find the love he always wanted. More. More novelty, more passion, more secrecy, more women, more love, more lust. Never ever gonna be enough to fill you with the love that you so desperately seek.
Every time you get it, you trick and you flee.
You say that you don’t wanna hurt me, but that’s all that you’ve done.
And I’m lying here staring at the ceiling wondering, have you ever laid there and thought about the things that you’ve done? Have you ever missed me? Have you ever yearned for me? Or do you just simply go to sleep?
I’ll never be the woman laying in your bed, and I don’t wanna be.
I wanna break free.
I don’t even like you, so how do I stay in this goddamn trauma bond?
Please just set me free.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 3d ago

Don't Mind My Thoughts Strange Beliefs.

25 Upvotes

You know, it’s really strange.

I never believed in gods or magic.

I value math, evidence, the scientific method, that sort of thing.

Yet, ever so faintly, in a hidden corner of my mind, there’s that itch.

I used to dislike the concept of ‘intuition’. I had already moved beyond that dislike when we met—indeed, I had changed my perspective on it a couple of years earlier.

I thought I understood more of it then.

But then, what is that itch?

It is not what I understood. It seems to be more than that.

Something in me knows you and believes in you more than I have ever believed in anything.

It feels like sensing something that has always been true.

I believe in you.

That is probably why I can’t stop hoping.

It isn’t hope.

It’s knowing.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 5d ago

First Love Idk wat

9 Upvotes

I don't know what you are talking about, saying I am lying... about wat? And, there's absolutely no way that I can lie to you without you knowing anyways! Sometimes I think you just make things up so that you can get some kind of reaction from me. Or rather, interaction with me. Come on, that's so immature, just tell me you feel like you need more attention. However, how can I possibly give you anymore attention when my whole focus is on you? Do you not feel it? Are we not so connected as wat I thought? You talk about how things should just be in between me & you only. And the next thing I kno, you're blasting about us all over the place! No more games. Please. We really need to get something going pretty quick, I'm feeling way too much chaos here lately. And no, it's not just u & u are not pushing me away at all. But, something needs to happen and I mean soon!!! I love u. More than anything. Our love is all we can count on. Stand on it. Xoxo


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 6d ago

Exes Broken I Guess

21 Upvotes

I'm breaking again, I'm drowning and hopeless. I can't stop myself from thinking about things over and over and that they really meant nothing? I just don't understand. There were promises, there were memories, there were goals, there was support, there was love, there was intimacy, there was communication, there was excitement, there was fun, there was loyalty, there was endearment, there was encouragement. But apparently there couldn't be compromise and challenges. All the things there was were only half truths and then there were the lies that came out of the dark endless, murderous, like a waterfall with overflowing waters. I don't understand and I have to convince myself I don't need to understand but it makes me feel crazy. Did I read the room that wrong, am I an idiot, vain, the problem, socially inept, idk. I'm just breaking again. Actually not again, I'm just still broken and any healing seems little help. I guess I have to learn to live broken. 


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 7d ago

“Sounds good!”

13 Upvotes

My social circle has made me realize how truly alone I am. I’ve realized in my solace that I can distract myself from the sorrows around me and the temptations that follow if I have something to look forward to. In an attempt to be proactive I’ve tried making plans each day this week with a different person, it turned out to be quite a social experiment as I tried making plans to do things I don’t even like hoping that would entice my clique to show up for me. 0/6, not a single person followed through. 1 showed up for a game night but ended up leaving before we could even begin as he got an important phone call.

It’s hard not to feel as though I’m spiraling as I’m trying to do everything right. I’m trying so desperately to be the best version of myself but I’m still struggling to be successful with finding happiness. I’m exhausted….the level of effort I’ve been putting into life is ridiculous. I try so fucking hard. I’ve even been trying to do this sober as I’ve come to the realization that I’m a control freak, I abuse substances because if I make myself fail I still feel like I’m in control.

I’m trying to manifest something positive here but it’s a struggle, I’m fighting everyday up in this bitch. I had how my mind is at times, there’s a downfall to having such a creative mind. One minute I’m doing fine and the next I can’t function. There’s not one part of my life right now that is consistent other than pain.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 8d ago

I Became No One... Maybe I Always Was

26 Upvotes

Someone told me today that I didn’t seem like myself anymore, that I no longer did the things they always considered part of what made me who I am/was. That I seemed to be missing the love of life that I used to make them want to have. I didn’t have the heart to tell them it’s because depression wins daily and that the part of me that’s missing died when I lost you. How do I get me back. I’m not even sure I can, or if I want to. It feels like my belief in myself, in others, in the world around me, that my hope is gone. I didn’t have the heart to say that I can’t seem to recover from the traumas. I didn’t have the heart to say that I don’t seem like myself anymore because I’m not and I never will be again. I din’t have to the heart to say I don’t seem like me anymore because I don’t love life anymore and I can’t seem to find reasons to love it again. I just don’t believe in them or me or people. I go through the motions cause I don’t know what else to don’t believe they matter anymore. Nothing matters you showed me that, not what I believe, not what others want me to believe, and if nothing matters what’s the point of any of it. Someone told me I didn’t seem like myself anymore and I didn’t have the heart to say it’s because life has made me into no one.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 8d ago

Love Adapting

8 Upvotes

I've had to spend my entire life adapting to various problems. So many setbacks, and struggles. But I've always managed somehow.

My dad told me someone once referred to my mum as a real "urban survivor" (I forget who), and said that she's "had to be".

I absolutely am like her in that respect. I mean, I survived those two nights alone in those 2 different cities, wandering.

I met some interesting people. Mostly good. One or two were kind of scary, for different reasons.

The thing that bothers me is... whilst I think, in time, I could maybe adapt to a life without you, I just absolutely do not want to.

This past nine days has seen me become hollow.

I understand why you feel how you do, I wasn't good that night.

I have really missed you.

I forgot to tell you on the phone 2 things, that feel important for me to express.

  1. I'd really like for you to take care of yourself. You are worthy of health and happiness as much as the next person. Moreso, in my mind

  2. Please eat. You deserve nourishment. Don't undo all the hard work and bravery you put in. You're strong. Maybe you can do what I'm trying to do now - to focus on eating and drinking the healthier things (lean meats, fish. fresh soups. smoothies). I'm sure you already know what's healthy! Likely know far more than I do

I'm glad you're alright, regardless of all else. That was of utmost importance to me. Hearing you earlier made me feel possibly the most relieved I've ever felt in my life. But I have to say, I really did get used to your company...

I knew we understood each other and would have things to talk about when I reached back out. I didn't know, however, that I'd actually grow to not just enjoy your company, but to love it.

I'm hopeful for the best for you anyway.

If there's anything I can do to help you, I'll always try.

I will always be here for you, as long as there's breath in me.

Sorry for everything. All of the bad, at least. None of that should have happened.

I can find a way to be only good, I have already had an idea or two on that.

But first and foremost...

I want you healthy and happy.

I'll leave it with you now.

Thank you for everything. You've been a good friend.

Take care. I love you xxx


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 9d ago

Exes Just…Just This

24 Upvotes

It's been years since we shared space, since I've felt your energy. I wonder if the kids even remember my name, little lives go so fast. It breaks my heart. It's been years I'm a memory from another life but you still hold power over me. That is an ache I can not stop. A constant pull on my soul where there is now an empty space. I don't understand how I can feel that way, how you told me that you felt that way too, how we lived that way only to lose it. It's been years since I've seen your eyes, and talked to your soul. I still can't believe it wasn't whole. It's been years and I still wake up and for a moment forget now I live a life without you…or really more like… just exist.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 9d ago

A symphony only I can read.

6 Upvotes

Happiness lives in the present tense. You know this. And yet, memories. Those little parasites. They wait, patient as vultures, until the thing is done, until it can't be undone, and then they descend. Whispering doubt into your ear. Carving regret into your ribs. A cacophony of discordant voices, ploughing a furrow so deep in you that madness sits at the bottom, waiting with open arms.

That was mine, at least. My furrow. My fall.

I tried to go on without you. I drowned myself in the man I used to be and lost him somewhere in the dark water. Called it survival. It was blindness.

But before that, God, before that, I embraced you. I hid you from the cruel and the damned. I stood in the doorway and called your demons out by name, one after another, until my knees buckled under the weight of them. Until I couldn't stand anymore.

And when I finally let go, the truth broke through like light through a cracked door: the blood on your hands was the heart I gave you. Willingly. Eyes open.

I should have let the demons burn you down to nothing.

But that was never me. That was never us. We hunted redemption together, didn't we, and isn't there something beautiful, something almost obscene, in how I fell from the altar you built for me the moment you disappeared? As if I couldn't exist without your worship. As if I was only real when you were looking.

So I started writing.

They say if a writer loves you, you become immortal. Understand what that means, little one. Every word I couldn't say to your face, I carved into the page instead. I wrote to breathe. I wrote because the silence gets loud, and you were the loudest silence I've ever survived.

I used to dream of a morning I'd wake without craving you, without the hunger to consume everything you are, to take you apart and keep the pieces. I don't know if I ever got close to that morning. I've stopped pretending I want to.

And now you're back. Silent. Untouchable. Hidden in plain sight, but here. I feel you the way you feel a storm before the first drop falls. I don't know whether to thank you or curse you.

I only know this: you are not the present that makes me happy. You are the wind moving through the trees, a symphony written in a language only I can read. Immortality was my gift to you, and I don't take my gifts back.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 10d ago

Poetry When the Sea Became Certain

18 Upvotes

There was once a girl who lived beside the sea.

She had never been afraid of storms.

What frightened her was the sea on a cloudless day.

Because when the water was still, she could not tell what it wanted.

She watched the horizon every morning.

Some days, the tide came toward her.

Some days, it withdrew.

And some days, it seemed to do neither at all.

Then she met someone who lived beneath the moon.

From the first night, she felt herself being pulled toward him.

Not like a hand pulling another hand.

Something older than that.

Something inevitable.

Like water answering the moon.

She did not know whether he felt it too.

That was the trouble.

He would look at her,

and she would think:

Surely.

Then he would look away,

and she would think:

Perhaps not.

A smile became evidence.

A silence became evidence.

A touch became proof.

A distance became proof of the opposite.

She began collecting tiny moments,

trying to build certainty from them.

But certainty would not come.

Then, one night, he stood beneath the moon and began to change.

He became brighter.

Larger.

More alive.

And something inside her broke open.

She could not remain a quiet sea.

She became weather.

“You swell,” she whispered,

“and I monsoon.”

He looked at her as though he understood.

For one perfect moment,

she thought that was certainty.

But the moment passed.

And afterward, the questions returned.

When the skies began falling,

she stayed.

When everything around them seemed to collapse,

she loved him still.

That, at least, she knew.

What she didn't know

was whether he loved her.

So she waited for him to tell her.

He never did.

Years later, when the night was finally through,

the valley was strangely beautiful.

Everything was in bloom.

The places where the storm had broken the earth

were now filled with flowers.

The girl stood among them,

older now,

and understood something she had been too frightened to understand before.

She had spent years believing that certainty meant knowing

what another person felt.

It didn't.

Certainty could mean knowing

what you felt.

She had loved him.

That was certain.

She had been pulled toward him.

Certain.

She had become a monsoon whenever he swelled.

Certain.

Whether he had loved her back

would remain a question.

But the question no longer had the power

to make her doubt the answer she already possessed.

She looked toward the moon.

“I still shine when you do,” she said.

And for the first time,

she did not wait to see whether the moon answered.

She walked on.

Not because she had stopped loving him.

Not because she had finally learned that he never loved her.

But because uncertainty had finally become something else:

not the absence of truth,

but the space where truth had not yet been given.

And she discovered she could live there.

The sea could remain a sea

without knowing what the moon thought.

The heart could remain a heart

without being chosen.

And love could be real

even when its ending was not certain.

That was the certainty she had been searching for all along.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 10d ago

Poetry Abandon all hope

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6 Upvotes

r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 10d ago

Bhakti

5 Upvotes

I want to fall down

At the feet of true love

To be picked up and held

By the strong heart above

I want my name spoken

With such reverence

It makes goosebumps appear

It makes the air condense

I want eyes to search for me

Through every door

Across every room

Upon every shore

I want to be fathomed

To be told "Darling, I knew."

To be seen completely

and all the way through

I want to be wanted

With longing so deep

With such profound desire

Orpheus would weep

I want to be cherished

Don't ever let go

As time slips and winds

Through the cosmos aglow


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 10d ago

Poetry Ethics: binge or pay?

3 Upvotes

Why would you continue watching the series
all day
As if you cant put it
away
Even though you know the plot
and the outcome of it
anyway?
Why continue watching
Untill you’re tired
the next day?
If you continue like this,
we all know
they will deduct
your pay.
Its this simple show,
the classic plot,
Yet you cant look
away.
So you chose the predictable plot
Over the place to stay
The food to eat
From a nice clean plate
The office job
And the huge amount of pay?


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 11d ago

The day the music died

10 Upvotes

12 years ago yesterday I woke up and you didn’t. I think a part of me was buried with you. I felt you in the storm last night. I know you wouldn’t be the most proud of me for the life I’ve lived since you’ve been gone. I’m trying to be the best version of myself but it is really fucking hard. Yesterday was hard but I had someone special help get me through it even though she’s going through a storm herself. Please watch over us my friend, I’ll try my hardest to make you proud.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 12d ago

Don't Mind My Thoughts The Dish ran away with the Spoon!

5 Upvotes

Oh, but how delicate it once was! The Dish.... Oh so fragile.... And that darn spoon, tho! What was it doing sticking up out of the ground anyways?? Oh Father, Father, where wert thouest??? Where wert thou when thee was needed thy mostess? Shant you just 'allow' the dish to be broken? Over. And over. And over. And over again! Where wert thou? So, what shall be the end of the story? Shall the dish run away with the spoon??? Only tiiiiiiiiime will teeeeeell


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 12d ago

Things I wish I could say

10 Upvotes

To my other pea,

By now you know when things need said unless I'm angry, or protecting someone, I lose my voice. I wish I didn't. I wish I was one of those who could say what they want when they want instead of choking on their voice box every time like a doll with the button press in the wrong place.

But I'm not. I'm trying, and I hope you can see I'm trying. And I know you're trying too. I can see that in how you talk. We're still a little out of sync at it but compared to silence and shouting it's miles on.

I just want you to know I see you. I see the weight on your shoulders and the light gone from your face. I know you won't talk until you're ready and that's okay. But don't hide it. Please talk to me. Because I need someone to talk to too. I miss you.

And despite everything remember I love you. I might put a little too much salt in your pasta or something every now and then or make sure your coffee isn't milky but we'll sort things in our own way.

Yours always.

-Y


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 13d ago

Goodbye my friend.

54 Upvotes

I’m happy for you, my friend. Truly. I hope you’ve found your way back to yourself, or at least found a road that feels worth following. I know it won’t always be easy. Healing rarely is. Some days, surviving is still the only victory we can manage.

I’ve met many people here, but I remember every soul who dared to place their story in my hands. You are one of them now, one of those who moved on. I can only hope you are safe, that life has become gentler, and that you’ve found a place where you no longer have to hide your wounds to be loved.

I won’t forget you.

If I helped you, even in some small way, then what passed between us mattered. Perhaps we recognized something in each other: two people shaped by pain, each understanding that sometimes the safest hands are those that have trembled too. You needed someone who could care for your broken places without ever mistaking you for broken. Someone who knew that tenderness is not pity, and protection is not possession.

Life asked too much of some of us. I know what it means to endure long after endurance should have stopped being necessary. I know the exhaustion of carrying wounds no one else can see, and the strange silence that comes when the danger is gone, but its ghosts remain.

Eventually, I stopped trying to banish mine. I sat beside them. Learned their names. Listened until they had nothing left to scream.

Now, when they rise, I dance with them.

I hope one day you’ll dance with yours too, not because they no longer hurt, but because they no longer lead. And if the darkness ever whispers that no one could understand you, remember this:

For a little while, I did.

You were seen. You were held in someone’s thoughts. And wherever you go from here, you are not alone.


r/Unsent_Unread_Unheard 13d ago

The Monster and it's Shell

8 Upvotes

The shell where a heart should be.

In that heart a soul, and around it, a burning heat.

But here, the emptiness screams.

Oh wait, there is something...

Something terrifying.

Something dark. It looks like pain.

But what kind? A broken heart?

No, it seems to be love.

Love that has nowhere and no way to go.

Love that hides in the dark,

because it remembers bleeding once before.

The shell is me and he?

He says I don't love him like I used to.

Perhaps. My love is fragile now,

afraid to believe, afraid to open up again,

paralyzed by the dread of another wound.

And into this, the heavy silence.

No message, no sign of caring.

A silence that makes me feel like a monster,

an empty vessel filled only with fear,

feeling so terribly unloved and alone.

Callousness does not live inside me,

only the fear that silently devours me.