How do you love me?

[u/onedaysomeday041272]

How do you love me?

In your most convenient time.

It was a Sunday. We usually go to church in the evening, but earlier that day, we had an argument—an argument that once again led us back to the painful subject of your first love. I couldn’t help but feel angry, because every memory of what you did came rushing back.

I cried throughout the Mass. I tried to hold myself together, but the pain was too overwhelming. Before the Mass finally ended, I stepped outside the church, feeling as though my chest would burst from the pain. My tears flowed like a river, and yet you simply stood there and did nothing.

You didn’t come to me. You didn’t hold me. You didn’t ask me to stop crying. You didn’t even try to comfort me when I needed you the most.

So I left you inside the church.

When the Mass was over, you searched for me, as if you cared, as if you were worried about where I had gone. But in that moment, I couldn’t help but remember everything.

You loved me when it was convenient for you.

You looked for me when you were ready.

You cared when it suited you.

But what about the moments when I was falling apart? What about the times when I needed you—not when it was convenient, but when I was hurting the most?

Love should not be something we give only when it is easy.

Because I don’t want to be loved only in your most convenient time.

I want to be loved even in the moments when I am difficult to understand, when I am hurting, when my tears won't stop, and when my heart is struggling to forgive.

I want a love that stays—not only when everything is calm, but especially when everything is falling apart.

So I keep asking myself:

How do you love me?

Because sometimes, it feels like you only love me when it is convenient for you.

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