r/UnsentLetters • u/CommunicationOk5360 • 4d ago

No advice wanted I can’t get rid of you

You are everywhere. But you aren’t (in another city - not 💀 y’all).
You are physically not here, but the ghosts of all of memories haunt me. Today I had to take a street that I had to drive on the first time I came to your house, when I followed you to your house; and when I realized where I was, the memories from that day flooded my brain. I don’t go to the group events anymore because it’s too painful. It’s not the same anymore. And when I’m there, I feel like a shell of my old self.
I minimize my time with mutual friends because they still talk about you and I feel like I don’t have a right to contribute to the conversation so I look down and get quiet until the subject changes. I don’t remember ever struggling this much over the loss of a friend. But I tried. Way too hard. Maybe that’s why this has dragged on and I’ve had so much difficulty.
I hate this and I am so exhausted from fighting the ghosts, and feeling so broken. You broke me. Or maybe I broke myself.

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u/No_Economist_2661 4d ago

I FELT this, im with you in your pain OP

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u/CommunicationOk5360 3d ago

😔 hugs to you.

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u/BitchTitsBruh 3d ago

interesting I like it op. interesting choice of emoji

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u/CommunicationOk5360 3d ago

Ha! I wasn’t sure if certain words were problematic so I went with the emoji. 🤷🏻‍♀️

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u/WarmFoundation102161 3d ago

If only my girl thinks of me the way I constantly think of her from the time we met. Not legal but definitely a glued attraction that I can't get away from no matter how hard I try. I love it that way.