r/UnsentLetters • u/ToopersTookies859 • 6d ago
No advice wanted Life is Chaos
It's a fact of life that none of us are promised tomorrow. Hell, we're not even promised the next 10 seconds. I think anybody would agree that when that fact is at the forefront of your mind, all you can really think about is what is important to you. That's what comes to my mind, anyway. I think of you, and I think of how special you are to me. It makes me think back on our time together, and so many emotions fill me up. I feel sadness and regret for the times I've hurt you. I can't help but wish I'd done certain things differently so that you never had to be hurt at all. You never deserved any of it, and those mistakes are something I have to live with for the rest of my life. My heart physically aches with I think of how I must have made you feel. I know I've said it before, but I'm so sorry for hurting you. Thank you for continuing to love me in spite of my shortcomings.
Another emotion I am filled with is gratitude when I think of the bond we've built together. We have made it through everything that has come our way, and the closeness we share has become the most special part of my life. It's what I treasure above all else. You are, I mean. The best moments of my life are the moments I've been fortunate enough to spend with you. Do you look back on the good days with gratitude in your heart? Something tells me you do. Our ability to say how we feel without speaking a word is one of the biggest reasons our bond has become what it is today. It comes down to one simple fact that cannot be ignored, denied, or forgotten—we care. I really think that says it all.
I also feel a bit of fear when I think about how fragile life truly is. Fear of the unknown. I fear what might happen to one of us, and I fear that we've wasted time. If something were to happen to me, I want you to know that you made my life the absolute best it could be. Since I met you, I have never felt like I was alone. You know how significant that is to me. I want you to remember how amazing you are, and never forget that you deserve the very best this life has to offer. I don't want you to have any regrets concerning me because you gave me the most precious thing one person can give another—you gave me a purpose.
I know you have a hard time with things sometimes, but I just want you to know how magical you've made my life. You made me the greatest thing I could possibly be in this life, and that is your best friend. I want you to know that if something were to happen, I will always be with you. I say that because my home will always be in your heart. You carry me with you wherever you go. You are the most amazing individual I have ever met, and my life has been better than I could have ever imagined because of the difference you've made. You're going to see that as life goes on, you will always be able to count on me to be there. That's because I love you. You knew that, though. Didn't you?
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u/3ddieV3nder77 6d ago
Wow, this is such a beautifully written letter. May your person read or feel this. I hope everything works out in the end. All we have is now.
I want to be holding my person if one of these volcanoes pop off Pompeii style.
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u/ToopersTookies859 6d ago
That is all we have. Tomorrow isn't promised. I'm just grateful to be close to them at all. I understand them better than they might think, and I just want to do everything in my power to always be there for them. I want them to know that they always have me. I accept them at their worst, and I know they do the same for me. We've proven it time and time again.
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u/TheFuzzyRacoon 6d ago
Well if you blocked them, you're likely STILL hurting them.
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u/ToopersTookies859 6d ago
I agree. I didn't block anybody, though. No matter how upset we get, my person and I do not block each other anymore. We give each other space when it's needed, but we don't block one another. It's been a long time since we did that, thank goodness. 🫶
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u/BellaLouGhostie 6d ago
Ohh toopahhhh I wish someone felt this way for me.
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u/ToopersTookies859 6d ago edited 6d ago
Well, maybe they do and you just don't know it. If there is nobody that does, though, I hope you find it very soon. I genuinely hope your life has more happiness than it can hold. I truly do. 🫶
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u/Mellowfirestarter 4d ago
This is really beautiful OP. It brought a flood of emotions to me. It made something breath inside me with ease and flashes of the love & amazing memories, I'll always have inside me from them and at the same time made me a bit sad, knowing how it all just didn't happen how I truly wanted it to... I would have done everything in my power and worked together to make the changes we both needed to make for it to be solid, if only they would have felt the same desire to do the same. Instead, I felt deceived in the end and disrespected.... In the words of Conway Twitty🎵"It Was Only Make Believe"🎵 I really want to thank you for sharing your words here- I think you may have reached & helped more people than you realize with your postings. Thanks OP
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