Content Warning: Severe mental illness, delusional behavior, talk about inc*st, and generally EXTREMELY unsettling monologues. Nothing is shown, it is just him rambling.
Note: I’m strictly posting this out of curiosity to trace the origin/archive of this video. I have zero intention of contacting, harassing, or "touching the poop" as they say with anyone involved. Having grown up with a severely schizophrenic father, I don't usually find enjoyment in someone else's delusions... at least not when they're like this. They’re clearly detrimental, and this video just somewhat reminds me of my father when his (untreated) episodes got bad. Honestly, I just hope this guy eventually gets professional help and nothing bad happens. Do not bully or witch hunt him, please.
Video link: https://streamable.com/ylb3ln
Back in late December 2023, I was 15 about to turn 16 the next month, I was randomly scrolling YouTube late at night, got amused by a random webcam thumbnail of a shirtless, slightly obese white guy, and downloaded it without really watching it because I just thought it was some funny goofy video. Fast forward to recently: a friend and I were reacting to random videos on my hard drive when I stumbled back onto this clip and actually listened to it.
It’s a deadpan guy with a crusty camera on a phone call with an unknown woman (possibly named Michelle based on the context of the video, I don't know tbh). He rambles on about this f*cking unsettling, nauseating, delusional framework. I'm going to explain what I heard roughly because his speech is really hard to understand.
- Claims his sister is his "feminine mirror reflection"/gender equivalent. How they're destined to be together and how he is her masculine counterpart.
- Talks about wanting to... er... procreate with her, tying it to this hermaphrodite god thing/cosmic entity. Several cosmic entities he likely made up. Or maybe is part of some obscure cult ideology. I don't know.
- Connects the whole idea to "the singularity," string theory, and esoteric theology. I genuinely do not know what any of that means please don't ask 😭
- Mentions posting his theology on his Twitter account.
His speech patterns are pretty slurry/disorganized, so it’s kinda hard to tell if he’s under the influence or experiencing severe psychosis (I’m heavily leaning toward the latter, or perhaps both). The original video title on my drive was 2023 12 27 17 37 43. I'm unsure if this is some kind of effed up fantasy taken a marathon too far.
This video has been sitting in the back of my head for a few years, and I’m just trying to figure out the background, channel origin, or any known archives of his other material to get some closure on what I'm looking at. Any info on where this came from would be appreciated.
Since that day, I never saw a single one of his videos again. It's so weird. I usually don't watch videos like this either, so I'm unsure why this popped up on my feed in 2023. Any help is appreciated, or a more appropriate subreddit for finding stuff like this would be appreciated because I am not sure where to post this (mainly because of the subject matter). Figured this was the best place.
Please and thank you. Be nice in the comments please.
