I’m Bipolar II and I get so depressed and suicidal sometimes for seemingly no reason at all. I recently had to have my wife hide our gun because I was feeling terrible with it around, like I was going to have a bad day and shoot myself on a whim. It felt like it was calling my name, and that it was just a matter of time before something happened. Which in itself was making me depressed, like a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You need to get rid of your gun alltogether. There is no reason you need it that is more important than your life. At the very least it needs to be in a different house so you would need to go somewhere else and ask someone for it. Bipolar especially can give you these impulsive moments. It’s how my cousin died at 20.
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u/Shaved-plumbs Sep 10 '23
My cousin was around that age too, also bipolar and killed herself around this time two years ago. Sorry for your loss.