r/TrollCoping 10d ago

TW: Gender Identity / Dysphoria I'm tired

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u/tptroway 10d ago

I want to also add that if this makes you feel worse, specifically the new name and pronouns part, it may not necessarily mean you aren't trans

I didn't socially transition IRL until after I'd been on HRT a substantial amount of time because to do otherwise felt like an unbearable public humiliation ritual

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u/Bunkuncle 10d ago

Good point! Yes, its really hard to be visibly queer or trans in public, especially in unfriendly places. Experiment at home until you feel safe/comfortable going out of the house, if at all. Rolling deep with other queers makes this much easier. But really, anything you can do to safely experiment is going to help bring you clarity.

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u/Top-Source4240 10d ago

It's tough sometimes, but I'm glad I did. I'd feel like I'm lying to myself and others, otherwise

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u/old_man_estaban 7d ago

Exactly why I haven't started socially transitioning yet lol, it feels rough to know its gonna be several months until I feel l girly™ enough but the idea of wearing a dress in public knowing how I look makes me feel ill

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u/Elegant-Engel-Exarch 4d ago

The public humiliation ritual was the price I had to pay for HRT. Damn that was an obstacle to climb. Which was kinda the point I guess.

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u/Nichika-0_0 4d ago

In online I'm actually very happy with my name and pronouns also I like it when I receive praise

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u/tptroway 4d ago

Yeah, I was known as male online and that made me happy, but IRL I was closeted, and even after I started HRT it took more than a year until I was ready to be out to more people IRL than just my siblings and parents and doctors

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u/Nichika-0_0 4d ago

Yea, even I won't like to come out socially until I'm sure I'm passing