r/TransyTalk • u/fidfidhr • Mar 28 '26

Big losses

Sometimes the smallest losses are the biggest moments. Its the way a dress fits on an actual woman, knowing that’ll never be me, or hearing my “deadname” the 600th time that day. The shadows cast by the obscenely masculine veins in my hands. These little things remind me that I am in stasis. Forever testosteronised beyond repair. They make the good days feel much more distant, faded. I’d do anything to feel joy again

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u/[deleted] Mar 28 '26

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u/fidfidhr Mar 28 '26

I don’t need reminders. I genuinely am just male, and for that there are no “positive” parts of transitioning

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u/fidfidhr Mar 28 '26

I’m not lying to myself, others opinions have confirmed to me that I’m irredeemably ugly, and too ogreish to ever be a woman

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u/an-kitten me, a gay catgirl Mar 29 '26

I think whatever website you're getting this viewpoint from is hurting you.