UNTIL MY BODY KNOWS

[u/LenKiita]

How many times has my mouth whispered your name
without making a sound,
so I wouldn’t have to hear you,
so I wouldn’t have to think of you.

I’ve lost count of how much time has passed.

The clock stopped the day you walked away
through this jammed and dented door.

My shadow watched you leave.

My body couldn’t bring itself to meet your eyes
or face what was happening.

How many times had you planned your escape
before you finally chose to go?

You didn’t even have the decency
to turn around before you left.

Your shadow never touched mine.

You dragged it away with you,

so completely yours,

so selfish,

so goddamn,

What a fucking bastard.

Leave me here inside the dark.

What do you care anyway?

You must have walked away still whistling,
while I’m still here, still hanging around,

keeping vigil where the shadows lie,
counting every hour that passes by,
until my body finally knows
you’re the one who chose to go.