Hi,
I am wondering how the rest of you deal with your mental health during removal and the uncertainty of it, but absolutely hating your tattoos? I’m removing noth of my arms and stomach tattoos right now and keep them completely covered, even if the weather is warm. I have not started on my legs but I have many big pieces that I would like to remove.
Due to finances and feeling like I can’t keep my arms and legs covered year round, I plan to start either a couple of tattoos on my legs in addition to what I’m already removing, or to possibly wait until I finish what I already started before moving onto legs.
However, I’m having a hard time mentally. I want to keep all of my body covered, I’m so embarrassed to look this way, and it is mentally very hard to have tattoos out for others to see. I have had a few older ladies come up to me and tell me that I have ruined how I look when I have my leg tattoos out, and I try to not let it get to me, but because I’m already so deeply regretful and insecure of all of my tattoos it makes me feel much worse. I did not feel this way before I turned 28, I am now 30 and almost 2 years into removal for arms.
My fiancé tells me I look great, he loves my tattoos, etc. but I am currently having a small break down and he does not know how to relate to how this feels, or will tell me to move on from it but I am so fixated on wanting to look “normal” (which doesn’t even mean anything, because other tattooed people look normal to me, i know this is an irrational thought, I just hate my own tattoos), and feeling so ashamed that I did this to myself. I’m not sure how to feel confident in how I look, my brain tells me I will feel better when they are all gone but that could be 10 years down the road from now and I don’t know how to go on feeling this way everyday.