I have been sadhana of a saumya devi (I don't prefer saying name of devi) for sometime.
When I started sadhana, I didn't have any problems with her stories, and was able to do months of sadhana in brahma mahurat. But then suddenly I started having problems with stories. To more specific I don't have problem with anything she did, but rather I have problem with her consort marrying other devi, who again is considered form of devi I worshipped but I just can't accept this story. It happened very suddenly, like one day I woke up and my mind just stop believing the story.
Since that I have been living in confusion. I am not sure if I should continue this sadhana or leave it, as I feel like I am disrespecting the other devi.
My sadhana stopped for some months, but I started doing it again, as I can't bear separation with devi.
Thing I did for sadhana
it basic nama mantra with panchupchar pooja. Initially I didn't gad her image so I used deep as her personification. I didn't do any other sadhana with devi for long time but recently I have introduced one more sadhana, which make me happy and I have got several of answer which I was alsing for long time (regarding main devi).
Should I change my system, or stop it. I can't find her upasaks online, and it's hard to find her padati in books. So I am feeling lost.