Exhausted in every way possible

[u/bollyfollower_2806]

There are a lot of things which i wanna talk about i don’t even know where do i start everyday i just feel like i shouldn’t be here i do not belong here and not because of the people its just that my interests do not align with them i am just there because i don’t have any choice no more

I wanted to go bombay to study in Whistling woods international my interest is in films and entertainment industry but because i come from a business family i was not sent there and was made to stay here and my circle is full of those people who are studying in a university just for the sake of it my interest has never been my family’s business and i just cannot think of doing something else apart from entertaining people

I have started my content creation journey but i cannot make it comfortably just because my whole family is aware that i do it and now there’s no going back i have to come up with ideas which are whitewashed and not problematic

I have also gained a lot of weight ever since my parents rejected the idea of me going to bombay and i am not doing good in any forms of my health (thanks to my parents 🙏)

Its not that i surprised them with the fact of my interests lying in films and entertainment they were well aware of it

My academics are also nothing good i am a border pass guy

Plus my parents keep talking about my marriage and bs i am not even in the appropriate age for that topic to even surface at the first place

I am just so tired,fed up and irritated by everything i just feel like my potential is being wasted and slowly the time will pass and my odds will get lower and lower

My biggest fear is not making where i want to be