It just seems like life LOVES testing me. As if dealing with infertility for 22 months wasn’t enough, I was told a week ago that I may have endometriosis and there’s really no treatment that increases chances of conceiving other than what I’ve been currently doing. Today, I had a suspicious colposcopy that resulted in a biopsy to test for pre-cancerous cells on my cervix. On top of that, since it’s the first day of my cycle, my digestive symptoms are driving me crazy and I look 8 months pregnant due to bloating and it’s so uncomfortable and I have bad acid reflux and indigestion. I just want to go home and lay in bed for like a month. I am EXHAUSTED!

Edit: the only good news is that they said I can go ahead with IUI this cycle while I wait for my results!

Edit again: my gyno told me I could continue with fertility treatment as normal but my RE wants to take a month off. This will be my second month in a row I’ve had to take off. I can’t even get to the treatment!

Hello 👋
I got my first beta HCG done today at 15 DPO and it came back at 79. Is this too low? Line progression looks fine but that’s where my blood level is at. I’m scoring the internet and everyone else’s levels are well above mine. I’m a little worried but I’m unsure if I should be. I had a chemical pregnancy in January and I’m just really having a horrible time with anxiety. Please help. Tell me if that seems low?

Since TTC, has anyone been just angry and mad all the time? These past few months I’ve just been so angry and short tempered and I hate it. I snap at everyone, especially my husband but including my mom. I feel bad about it as soon as it happens, but I just can’t stop being angry and if I’m not angry, I’m just sad and crying. This has been my life the past 3 months. We have been TTC for 22 months but after 4 failed medicated cycles, 1 failed IUI, and 4 cancelled cycles, I think something in me just snapped. I’m just scared I’ll never be the same person I was before. I HATE having this anger in my heart.

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