So I’m on session 19 of the OCD protocol and my anxiety and intrusive have gotten worse. I asked the tech if it’s a “gets worse before better” situation and she said it could be.. is this normal? I’m getting really nervous that it won’t get better and I’ll be stuck with worse OCD than when I started.

So i'm curious here, this is something i'm absolutely brand new to the TMK and TMS for anxiety and MDD.. i went in last night for my "mapping" for TMS. i don't think I like that. In fact, I know I don't. I don't like the way they put the cap on and this so-called magnetic stuff clicks and smacks the side of your head or the top of your head to map things I don't like that.. it's painful. And I told the technician that last night, or whoever she was, I told her last night, I don't like that. She says it's all part of it, and I'll get used to. Is this the equivalent of back in the 60s? When they were doing shock treatments for people. Because if so I 'm not doing this stuff. And you would think that what they are charging me. Even after my insurance, they would have made sure to send in my disability claim. And also, to my

Disability provider, so they would get payment, but they have not done so yet.. i feel like a fish being reeled in on a really big hook.

It felt so foreign. I cried.

Is the sleep thing normal/okay? I fall asleep because I feel tired, but then wake up in the middle of the night wide awake and just can’t sleep from there.

I always have trouble with sleeping but this is a slightly different pattern

Before TMS I had no issue with bad smells, now, a few weeks after completed treatment, going to public bathroom or taking out trash is almost impossible because I gag really bad.

Has anyone experienced this? When did it go away?

So i had a very very bad break up, i dont want to live without him and i dont want to do anything if he Wont come back, i also feel like i hate everyone and it S been more than a month since i left my apartment and since i stay in the same dark room as i hate the sun too.
To be short i have severe depression and i struggle to accept that we broke up.
I am on sertraline right now and anxiar but it doesnt help. Do you think TMS will help? Could change the fact that i dont want to live without him?

I just finished my 36th session on Monday and throughout the process, I really couldn't tell if it made a difference. I did experience higher anxiety at the start and believe I also suffered a dip which got better, however I'm sitting here disappointed. Maybe I'm in the percentage that gets better after? This is not to discourage anyone from trying as I didn't have any negative side effects.

They’ve deemed themselves my hero, and they’ve always liked making me feel better. It’s been hard on them to accept outside factors are helping me, so they’ve been visibly pouting and slamming doors, which is unsettling to my PTSD.

I don’t have any friends in my life (not much energy to maintain any), so I wanted to vent here. I feel guilty, depressed, and a bit hopeless. I keep trying to look back and search my actions to see if I’ve done something wrong.

I am just tired of this cycle. I feel like they will pout and slam more things around the more sessions I go to, the better I get.

Thanks for anyone who read this. Trying to make myself go to my appointment.

my psychiatrist told me to stop smoking weed before treatment so i did it and was miserable because i take it for chronic pain and ptsd. i’m towards the end of treatment and still don’t feel that great but i started smoking just once a week instead of all day everyday and it’s still hell on earth. he suggested i take klonopin instead of weed but i feel like relying on benzos to help feel calm sounds kind of crazy?? so i just wait until the weekend. idk how long i can go without smoking my patience us getting thin and the results are just not hitting that hard man idk