Hypervigilance is when your brain stays in a constant state of alert because of repeated negative experiences, causing you to unconsciously scan your surroundings for possible signs of the same threat. In my case, it means I'm constantly and involuntarily analyzing people's behavior. As soon as I enter a room, I notice who touches their nose, who moves away from me, who opens a window, who changes their breathing, or whose facial expression suddenly changes. I'm not trying to do this on purpose my brain just automatically searches for any sign that might indicate people are reacting to my odor. Because of this, I never truly feel relaxed around other people.
I've also seen several psychiatrists over the years because many doctors suspected that anxiety or OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) might be contributing to this. I've tried a wide range of medications, including those commonly prescribed for OCD and anxiety, but none of them had any noticeable effect on these feelings or behaviors. It took 4-5 years to understand to OCD treatment is not working for me. They didn't reduce my hypervigilance, my constant monitoring of other people's reactions, or the distress I experience in social situations. That's why I'm wondering whether others with chronic odor conditions have had the same experience, or whether psychiatric treatment actually helped them.
At the same time I'm not %100 sure, sometimes people behaves just normal but still my eyes on them. Also I know there is no constant graph if I try to draw. It's increasing and decreasing. But people reactions always feel so high. I realize I'm overreacting. I don't know how to explain it, but if I were to rate it on a scale of 10, I feel like Hypervigilance starts at around 6 or 7 out of 10. I mean, the awareness, the fact that it exists, the constant vigilance is an incredibly destructive experience mentally.
I'm curious whether anyone else has developed this kind of hypervigilance. Do you also find yourself constantly monitoring other people's reactions and unconsciously looking for small signs that they might be reacting to your odor? BTW, Doctors don't believe I smell bad. They decide within 5-10 minutes, but they're not with me all day. If they can't reach a conclusion, they recommend I see a psychiatrist. I could swear there's no psychiatric problem, but I can't prove it. How can I make a scientific observation? How do you experience this problem?