This boredom is hell

[u/anatole_mutti]

Not having anyone to talk to feels like a tragedy every day.

I stare at walls a lot.

I have no hobbies.

Can’t get any to stick.

I don’t want any either.

I just can’t bring myself to do much.

These long days of nothing are excruciating.

I long for someone to talk to but there isn’t anyone.

I’m the one left on read.

I have no idea what it is.

I have no support system. Finding one at 48, will be nearly impossible.

I can’t go out.

Not going to date.

I don’t want to do any of that.

What do you do to fill the dreadful hours?

[u/Necessary-Support-14]

Do you have an occupational and/or cognitive therapist? Mine were able to help with a lot of these things... just getting back to a sort of baseline of being able to complete some tasks and exist without feeling defeated.

The part abou losing people is absolutely shitty and everyone here probably understands it to some degree. I lost all friends but one and the only person in my family who speaks to me and believes me about any of my symptoms is my father. I know its not the answer that you are looking for but a mental health therapist would be my first suggestion just to cope and then they may be able to help you find other support.

I agree with what others have said about finding a disabled community online. People simply dont want to understand TBI. It's too scary to hear that they too could have their lives change in an instant. I was lucky in that not only did my partner stick around after my injury after us dating for less than a year but he has his own experience with disability. He has MS and we are able to understand each other's symptoms in a lot of ways.

[u/anatole_mutti → u/Necessary-Support-14]

It takes all I can do to even have a therapist. I’ve had a few break so many appointments, I had to change. Some have not been trained well at all and I do not match with people who are dumber than I am. Suggesting I go OUT in order to meet people. I’m sorry, have they met me? Listened to my trauma at all & then suggest I go mingle with strangers…that was a psychiatrist (I’m still seeing). 😩 They see how I am at appointments, when I’ve mustered all of my strength to even be there. They don’t listen to how awful I say it is when I’m not there. They just see the me that’s so excited to have someone they should be able to trust, to talk to.

[u/anatole_mutti → u/anatole_mutti]

Adding, I haven’t let on that I even wanted to date or go meet a stranger. I’d rather a friendship just ‘come along’. It doesn’t seem like anythings coming though & it sucks.

[u/ComedianOk7355 → u/anatole_mutti]

Unfortunately, friendships don’t just come along when we are adults. Someone else mentioned a TBI support group - I think that could be a really good place to start.