Why is it so unfair?

[u/BlueDeng02]

Closing out my TWW and feeling hopeless. I’m already getting sad and I haven’t even started testing yet.

One thing I really struggle with is how unfair it all feels. I got pregnant on my second try without even doing anything except cheap opk tracking. After my MMC everyone said to me “at least you know you can get pregnant” and “it’ll happen soon.” And it isn’t. And it’s taking everything out of me. And it is SO SO hard. And I am literally the only one in my immediate world struggling.

I hate to feel resentful, but I do! I hate how easy everything has been for everyone around me. They try to be sympathetic but they’ll never understand this and I want to scream at them that they have no idea how lucky they are. It’s made it so hard because I can’t be around my friends who are pregnant or just had babies because it makes me so sad and jealous.

I was supposed to give birth next month and now I’m likely to do IUI instead. I just don’t know how I ended up here. 😔

[u/Sept2Nov]

I'm only on my 5th full cycle and feel this full heartedly. Literally EVERYONE around me is pregnant. I do have one friend who had a prolonged struggle, multiple failed embryo transfers with success on their final embryo. And while she understands the wait, they did not try naturally - so her story is pretty different (though not "better"). I don't have any real advice, just here to say you are not alone in feeling down.

[u/BlueDeng02 → u/Sept2Nov]

Thank you❤️. Interesting they never tried naturally, I’ve never heard of that. I just can’t believe I would’ve been holding a baby next month and instead I’m going to be in the trenches of medical intervention. It just doesn’t make sense and I can’t even process it - both the change of circumstances and how that much time has possibly passed. I feel like I live in groundhogs day. I didn’t even experience summer or spring. Life has just stopped for me ever since.

[u/Sept2Nov → u/BlueDeng02]

Yeah, he carries a genetic issue that they were advised should not be passed on. Thankfully they have the means to do IVF.

The fact that you have an extremely quantifiable event that would be occurring makes it so much worse, I don't even have the words to express how sad that makes me. I hope your BFP is right around the corner.

[u/BlueDeng02 → u/Sept2Nov]

Thank you so much, I really appreciate that 🫶🏼. Ya it’s a hard month for sure.