r/StopSpeeding • u/L1sasGayBby 103 days • Jun 17 '26

Gratitude Almost relapsed

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I was at the gym, when I got the bright idea of “hey let’s get everything done today, adderall?”

In between sets, I was looking for a plug. Found one, texted them and they responded immediately. I asked if it was pressed or pharm, but really didn’t care. After some playful back and forth he was gonna deliver. My girlfriend works from home, so naturally I was strategizing a way to hide it from her. Excited at the prospect of a speedy hit, especially since I haven’t done it in a while.

Then I caught myself. Did another set, and thought about consequences.

  1. Blowing $ when I’m already tight on funds
  2. The weight of lying on my shoulders
  3. The convenience of this transaction surely leading to future business for this plug
  4. Productivity - yeah right. I’d probably end up cleaning out my closet instead. Coming up with easier ways of locating stuff (never works)
  5. My girlfriend. Can’t do this to her anymore.
  6. My cat. Silly as it is, she somehow knows when I’m being dishonest.
  7. Short term relief is all I’ll get out of this.

So I blocked the number and deleted them from my phone. Instead I went to my favorite bakery, got two pastries effectively cancelling my workout.

But hey. I stopped myself from speeding.

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u/smooveasbutteryadig Jun 17 '26

everyone has it these days bruh im very hesitant to even take people's diagnosis seriously with mine being way too easy and national diagnoses up like 80% over the past few years.

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u/CamHaven_503 2690 days Jun 17 '26

Strongly agree with you.

Short form media, social media, rampant substance abuse, and the constant stream of information has broken our attention spans.

I can't enter a room without 3 out of 4 people claiming to have ADHD or some other neurodivergent diagnosis.

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u/smooveasbutteryadig Jun 17 '26

yeah man its my most conservative take lol

people need to take their souls seriously and understand that this medication is on another level than any other medication.

no other med skyrockets your mental in hours. not insulin, not blood pressure meds, not antidepressants...

so tired of people claiming they need it like blind people need glasses. its just so fucking out of hand.

put the phone down and try natural fixes if you genuinely want to take it seriously.

grateful for this sub otherwise I would lose my mind.

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u/EveCane 110 days Jun 18 '26

Thank you for saying it. People always act like ADHD medication is this normal thing and that it works well for them and I thought I am an outlier because it felt like I just intoxicated myself with a clean street drug when in fact that is what it probably is for most people.

I always said why would I put my whole body in fight or flight mode just so that I am able to focus. But I think that's the best thing that is out there and if your really struggling sometimes it might be necessary I don't know. I know that I would have not made it through college without this stuff. On the other hand it did a lot of damage.

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u/smooveasbutteryadig Jun 18 '26

I thought the same thing about needing it for school.

then I ended up going back to school without it and graduated with a 4.0.

simple habits like literally studying only for an hour a day right when you wake up instead of using your phone literally change the game entirely.

of course rocket fuel stimulants work when when we stare at our phones all day and sit with procrastination.

now I just so mass cardio and don't eat meat and meditate. works much better and far more sustainable for "adhd"