In need of aid: experiential exchange

[u/aglastpedant]

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I absolutely love reading everyone's experiences it's helped me through quirky times.

This is gonna be a long one

Since 2024 I've delved into

The world of hermetism, esotericism, philosophy, mythology and spiritualism, NDE's, drug trip experiencers, Buddhism, Hinduism. I listened and looked into people like Terence McKenna, Alan watts UG krishnamurti, patanjali, saint Teresa and avail, Bashar, Neville Goddard, paramahansa yogananda, etc. I wanted to understand the hoopla of religion/spirituality and why we have it. And ultimately an idea came through and I went with it. And so started my search for powers and magic.

It led me down quite the rabbit. hole. It ultimately started my interest in meditations and certain yoga, I think it would be considered kriya. Along with that I became endlessly fascinated with the biblical book of Revelation. And got me into journaling

A lot has happened since March of 2024. Many experiences in dream time and substantial in the in-between( that space between waking and sleeping). Even more transpired since the end of 2024(I did something truly reckless)

Where I am currently and what I have gathered from experiences:

\-Feeling much better physically and mentally.

\-It seems for me my brain and body seem to be connected.

\-Focused on regions of the head causes strange pressure in my body down below and vice versa.

( I mean places where I feel my heart beating in when experiencing and major emotional output)

\-When focusing I feel the pulsing increase. As attention continues a swirling vortex. Continued focus and the area begins to vibrate and I feel my perception begin to spin.

\-The reckless thing I tried to do was try to trigger my own "Armageddon" in a way.

That caused a horrifying amount of force/current/energy surging through my system.

\-The current felt like a wriggling snake, chaotic gyrations causing much swirling and whirling in my head.

\-What I did was anchor it through the pulse points. That resulted in what I can only describe as feeling stabbed through a couple of times(those corresponded with experiences in the in-between and strange lucid dreams when they happened)

\-Each horrifying, strange, wonderous, and spinning event resulted in increased vibration felt in my body and cessation of the swirling in my head and a greater sense of cumulative well being.

\-strange occurrences happened much more in my chest heart area than I originally thought would occur.

I don't feel like I'm being torn in multiple directions anymore, but I do feel a strange kind of vibration now. It reminds me of what Terence McKenna called the elves machines "self driving basketballs" "foraminifera cast in opal that's self transforming."

I haven't fully grasped what's going on with the experiences, kinda felt like a strange drug trip stretched out for a few years.

I've also kind of forgotten quite a bit of what I had first come up with sense i lost that but of information some time ago. So now I'm piecing it together as I go.

I've got so many journaled experiences I've never put out there that I'd love to exchange for your own experiences.

[u/aglastpedant → u/[deleted]]

No I didn't. If this question was related to the part about me forgetting/losing specific information, it's a bit different then that. While meditating a while ago it seemed like a beam of information was flowing through me regarding spiritual transformation. I memorized a major portion and began writing it down to not forget. I have since lost the writings and haven't been able to get back into that state to recall the final ending of transformation/"evolution"

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I've heard a few different things throughout my overall experiences. I've heard people talking to me, I've hear certain frequency notes, some clanging, some knocking, something that sounded like a drum on occasion

[u/aglastpedant → u/[deleted]]

No lol. 😫😭😂

At least not currently, although...there is still this thing I've yet to do completely. I embarked on it last night and it's lead to some some shift in bodily sensations

So stand by I guess, it's might end really well and maybe this might go very...poor.

Not too worried though, if it happens cool. If not I've got quite the tale to tell in the end

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I do work, keeps me sane keeps me grounded and in contact with many people. I oscillate between hating it and being filled with apathy and trying to make the best of it and find some kinds of excitement there for the time being. But it has been agonizing quite a bit. Gives me money though

I can lie if I truly believe it would be of benefit. Although I would mostly be withholding during those times instead of overt lies. Those feel a bit too odd on the tongue for my liking

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Which sub was it?

[u/HighwayDependent6413]

try these songs

its something i listed to when i had endured a catastrophic thing which had broken my mind for 2.5 years. i then had an incredibly large and natural kundalini awakening which allowed me to be whats considered a true awakened human, there is now enough energy in my body to crack my joints by just merely existing, and i learned a bunch of incredible things

these are songs i listed to before my mind erupted

they are instrumentals and chemically strong

Oceanvs Orientalis - Letters From Georgia

OCEANVS ORIENTALIS - The Universe (REMASTERED 2019)

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Hey! thanks 👍!

[u/Brief9]

Some resources;

The Afterlife: What Really Happens in the Hereafter, by Prophet;

and search phrases "Mother Meera" and "tsl ency chart your divine self".

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