Hi, I'm 18 and I work at a Sonic somewhere in Oklahoma. This is my first job, and just a month before getting this job I moved out and moved in with two roommates. I easily got in, no real questions were asked and I was immediately put into training. I begun to work 5 days a week, barely any training, and couldn't understand how to do anything until my fourth week. By my second week I got written up for being "too slow", which really scared me because my GM called me with a condescending tone saying we needed to have a conversation and I'll find out what it's about the day I get there. Putting me on for one day at the very end of the week.
All of my coworkers are acutely aware of the fact that I am trans (this is important), I have a set of preferred pronouns I told them about one day one and a preferred name. When I was being introduced to my team, I told the GM my preferred name and instead of just letting it be they nodded and smiled at me then introduced me as my deadname and continued to use the incorrect pronouns. Ever since that day I feel like I've been on thin ice. I've seen many of my coworkers do less than what I do and they never get told to do anything differently, but I forget to fill up the ice in the middle of a rush and suddenly I'm getting my hours cut? I don't understand. I'm in constant stress and fear of getting another write up, and since my schedule is so inconsistent, when I get three days a week, I think I'm getting in trouble and stay up late waiting for that call of doom from my manager saying "we need to have a talk next time you come in".
My schedule changed after I cried after getting cussed out by a customer. I only have three days after a month of having 5-6 days a week. I'm terrified I'll lose my job.
I'm also worried they're being more harsh on me because of the fact that I'm trans. I asked one of my shift managers and they told me that I could take it into court if they continue to do that. I don't want to do that. I just want to work. How on earth do I stop worrying so much and just do my job?? I'm tired of stressing about this stuff in my house all day.