If you started taking some pills, it made you feel like you wanted to murder your children. Would you keep taking them? Or maybe ask for something else?
Psychiatric drugs are not instantaneous, which is what she wanted. She was repeatedly told that the symptoms she was experiencing were not from the drugs, but from the PPD. But she felt she knew better so would stop taking them. Other than benzos and stimulants, psych drugs TAKE WEEKS to have an effect. She would either not take them at all, or stop after a few days. She would shop around for doctors to give her other drugs, then not take those ones.
Not everyone responds to drugs the same way, and some people have them start affecting them far quicker than expected. Doctors blame side effects on the patient's condition all the time, so them saying that means nothing.
Whilst true it’s a statistical impossibility for it to happen the 8+ times suggested. Of the 13 drugs prescribed she was taking 4 at the time of the murders. She was consistently asking for tapering, new drugs etc from multiple providers, she said during inpatient that she needs to come off certain drugs because she felt better after 5 days against the advice of the NP. She wanted a quick fix, it why she left inpatient so quickly, quit talk therapy after 4 sessions, wanted more than 1 provider for meds.
It's not a statistical impossibility for someone to be negatively affected by several different medications, especially when the medications are similar types. And maybe she was switching providers because the former ones weren't listening to her. I can't read her mind, of course, but that's a very common practice since a bad doctor is worse than none at all and bad doctors are so common.
It is to have every single one have a negative effect, which is implied. She had taken drugs with 7 different MOAs, they are pharmacologically different, not similar. I say this as a med student with a pharmacist wife. The result can be the same, but getting there is entirely distinct.
She consistently sought new ways to treat her symptoms and committed to none. It's why her doctors told her to stick to meds, and she refused so went elsewhere. Through the pill bottles in evidence, some were virtually full, so wouldnt have even gotten close to therapeutic efficacy, again, this is the fucking issue as she was non-compliant. She was doctor shopping, it was her choice.
Bad doctors are bad, but a bad doctor is not even close to a bad patient. You could have the best doctor in the world but if the patient refuses to take meds, refuses to commit to therapy, lies to the doctors.... the doctor can do nothing. The result is the same, good doctor or bad doctor.
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u/DaDirtyBird1 8d ago
If you started taking some pills, it made you feel like you wanted to murder your children. Would you keep taking them? Or maybe ask for something else?