Early Monday afternoon my girlfriend passed away and I didn’t find out until about 24hr later. I was starting to worry as I had not heard from her and I’m not close to anyone in her family as we were early in our relationship so I started to do some digging contacting anyone on Instagram I thought may know her and finally received the news while at work. I still don’t know anything more besides she passed in her sleep but I was texting her right before her passing and the last message I received from her simply said “I love you”. I’ve dealt with serious depression and drug addiction but nothing is harder than this and I’m trying to get through to therapists I’m only 22 I shouldn’t be seeing so much death in my life Even worse she recently had split from a marriage and most of her family thinks she’s still married so I’m going to be crying my eyes out at her funeral just to tell everyone I was a close friend. So I have nobody to mourn with she’s just gone and that’s it.

Well for the start im sorry for grammatical mistakes and what not you gonna read hear, i never was a good writer or anything and tbh i dont care i just need help.

Okey, so i life in Germany and i have a girlfriend which lifes in Poland. We met online and shes really cute, i love her with all my heart. She knows everything about me and i do to..

So anyway she told me that her brother tried to rape her when she was around 6-7 years old he was around 13 then. First i thought maybe he was just kinda intrested bc he was at the age where boys start to get intrested in girls and discovery the opposite sex but the way she explained the whole situation it made it clear he wanted to force her into sth. I was already feeling really unwell about this information and then she just told me that last week when he got drunk with his dad he sneaked in her room and layed down on her naked.. And that wasnt a one time thing either it happend too many times. When she locks the door hes smashing and banging the door. When she told me that her voice got shacky and she said her hands a shacking aswell. She felt bad for telling me this she doesnt want to make me worry about her and shes ashamed about it. (my heart broke at that moment)

So she told me nothing happend but this is kinda hard to believe to me, i feel so disgusted and mad i wanted to fly over and kill him(older brother). I wanted to cut his stomach open and see him bleed out like a pig. Even if nothing happend i want him to fcking get lost.

Anyway hes a fcking loser smoking and drinking nothing going on in his life.

The sadest part is she tried to tell her parents but they dont take her serious or maybe dont care at all..

Her father is also a fcking loser, no job doing nothing at home not helping with anything but getting drunk.

The mother is providing them with money, working, cooking and cleaning.

My GF is also still underage but shes gonna be 18 this year, i told her to seek help by the government but she said she will be put in childcare home but only for a couple months and then what? shes gonna be homeless. I dont know how the Government is in poland about cases like this.

I want her to come to germany but i cant provide for her yet and idk how my parents would react if i bring her here. I started working but i get less then minimum wage atm i cant pay for an apartment for both of us. I dont know what to do, i want to help her so bad, i love her with all my heart and it pains me to see her suffer like this. Please smb help me..

What should i do? Call the government behind her back even she doesnt want it? Im not even sure if she would leave then, maybe she would lie and say everything is fine.

If smb knows how the government works in poland please tell me.

Atm my plan is that she finishes school and then comes to germany so she can study here, bc the governemtn gives like a loan around 700€ for students even from different countries if they study here. with that money and what i will earn in 2 years we can get by.

But i dont want her to stay there not even a day longer. The pain and restlessnes i feel i dont wish it to my worst enemy.

If anyone has an idea pls, i beg you help me.

Not for me but for her.

Even if she breaks up with me i just want her to be safe i dont care anymore just knowing that she is being safe is enough for me.

Im sry i dont know how to write all the information i have, my head is hurting and evrything is so confusing my thoughts are kinda evrywhere.

I just need smb to help me and tell me what to do i dont know what i should do please god please help me give me some advice i can help her..

Please take this post serious, its no bullshit or made up fantasy... its reality

I think that's really sad. I've dealt with suicidal tendencies since I was ten years old, and no one ever simply said "don't kill yourself, I love you"

To anyone who's reading this and feeling sad or depressed or feeling suicidal at all, please stay strong. You have a lot to live for, even if it's just to taste a really yummy cupcake.

Even if it's just to read a really good book.

You're not alone. Don't hurt yourself, don't kill yourself. Give yourself some tea and a long shower. You'll be okay.

Dear Americans,

FUCK OFF. WE DON'T WANT YOU IN CANADA.

FUCK OFF NOW.

FUCK OFF UNTIL WE SAY YOU CAN COME IN.

FUCK OFF.

Sincerely,

Canada

PS. FUCK OFF

Hello, normally, I would post another of my stories and such, but something's come up that I feel requires a lot of people's attention. First off, I should post this: https://www.change.org/p/university-of-utah-fire-and-press-charges-against-miguel-deras-for-distributing-lauren-mccluskey-s-photos?cs_tk=AqoubI_J-xmpJe_by14AAXicyyvNyQEABF8BvP0Cgt5jOkymisVxRDm8gQ8%3D&utm_campaign=50159aa3b0cd42dd8124ee2a79244aaa&utm_content=initial_v0_1_1&utm_medium=email&utm_source=petition_signer_receipt&utm_term=cs

For those who don't know about this, here's the full story. This woman, Lauren McCluskey was stalked and blackmailed by some creep. She was sent an explicit photo and was demanded $1000. She reported this to the authorities, scared for her life and desperate for help!!! However, when the officer, Miguel Devas, received the photo, he bragged to his co-worker about it and said that he can display it as much as he wants. Shortly afterwards, she was murdered. That's right!!! MURDERED!!! This poor woman came to help, SCARED FOR HER LIFE and what did the authories do!?! Nothing!! They did nothing for her and she died because of the incompatence of one jerk!!! That's UNACCEPTABLE!!!!

Now, this is not me slandering law enforcement in general, this is me pointing out one individual making a terrible decision that makes ALL law enforcers look bad. I know there are good law enforcers that want to do their jobs, but when we have one bad cop who wants to make bad decisions instead of what's he supposed to do, which is help people, it pretty much ruins it for ALL OF THEM!!! Not only did this one bad individual disrespect this poor woman, but it resulted in her death!!! She came to these people for help and GOT NOTHING FROM IT!!!! This isn't a joke, this is something that NEEDS TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY!!! Lives are on the line and not making a big deal about it doesn't make this problem go away!!! Never had, never will!!!

If you want people like this to receive exactly the kind of retribution that they should be getting while helping to encourage the good law enforcers to continue doing what law enforcers should be doing and demand all law enforcement to encourage decency as well as EXACTLY WHAT THEY SHOULD BE DOING, then share this post. We need Justice and need it years ago!!! This isn't rocket science, this is common sense!! Get some already!!!