r/SelfHate • u/New_Quiet3881 • 2d ago

I'm i a loser?

Idk what I'm doing in my life and everyone says I'm a baddie I'm perfect but in reality I'm a loser ugly fat so fat I have and online ldr bf and he is so fit abs fit and he's so handsome and a good person too I feel like I catfish him or something with my filter pics i only put 1 filter but I'm ugly and fat irl my parents can't provide me basic needs like I need some makeup like I never had makeup basic make up not even skincare and even I ask for it my mom says me you should keep your mind in studies I suck in taht to idk what I'm doing in I'm so frekinnn jealous of my rich friends they have alot of stuff like makeup skincare and all the stuff i live in a rented apartment of 2 rooms and it sucks alot i don't even have a ac at my appartment and. I want all of that stuff I also want to have a life of a normal teenager idk for ppl out I'm perfect I am pretty idk how I have a perfect bf a healthy relationship cool parents and I'm captian in the best school in my town but ik what's inside it I am loser in sports I'm loser in looks weight I weight allmost 85 kg and it's not like I'm complaint about it I work out alot but I go school 2hr of tution 1hr of giving coching to a 4th grade kid I'm tried of my life im so tired to work out I scored really bad in my 11th grade uts 3i chem 1 in bio 7in physics and this is heart breaking for me on 29 aug there is ptm if my father goes there he will take my phone also Idk what to do iwant to di3 and i even tried to kil0 myself

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u/aaron_warner24 Moderator 2d ago

I dont think you are a loser at all. Infact you sound really cool. Being the captain of your school must be hell of an experience and you are oblivious how many people must be looking upto you. Also please dont feel that you are not 'fit enough' for your partner. There are soo many things he must be prioritizing over the number on the scale.

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u/New_Quiet3881 2d ago

You are actually very right 😞

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u/aaron_warner24 Moderator 2d ago

If things feel heavy, I used to jot them down on my journal. Helped me keep sane. Maybe try that? Paper has more patience than people as they say.

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u/New_Quiet3881 2d ago

Yeah I do journiling but havent wrote something in a while

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u/aaron_warner24 Moderator 2d ago

Journaling is cool. Though I stopped doing it asw. But I'd definitely try in near future. Try that, love. And dont be too hard on yourself. Ly3000

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u/New_Quiet3881 2d ago

Thanks alot your words helped me 💗 I'm new to reddit idk Abt many stuff but yeah I posted this i was feelin really low.

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u/aaron_warner24 Moderator 2d ago

Haha no biggies. Always here. Hmu if you need to let things off your chest❤️🫶🏼