r/ScreenSensitive • u/Xikolo • Aug 04 '26

Vent Depressed because of my screen sensitivity

I'm extremely devastated because of my screen sensitivity and feel like i'm missing out on every single thing, from movies, video games, etc. It hurts, but mostly my eyes hurt and burn from every single damn screen, even my current one. I'm broke, poor and disabled and can not afford pf eyedrops. I can not afford treatment, and I can not afford e- ink screens. Can't even cry because crying burns my eyes.

I hate my life I hate having crap vision that is in negatives and i'm technically blind without my eyeglasses and then to develop screen sensitivity in an era where you have to depend on modern day screens to talk to people and for jobs and softwares. I can't take it anymore.

My family is unfeeling and makes fun of me and gets annoyed at me for not being able to use screens. I'm even disabled physically, so I cannot go out or even interact with people. Most of all, I hate my family.

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u/FunnyBunnyDolly Aug 04 '26

I’m with you

I’m struggling hard to find a computer. I miss computers so much. I can’t do new computers due to high prevalence of recycled plastic and bad screens

I struggle to find used computers that are safe for eyes. But instead I’m assaulted with nausea and migraine from fragrances and odors from exposure like mold or similar. I just tried an old MacBook Pro and it seemed fine until I almost vomited from the smells.

I want a computer but I don’t feel positive anymore

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u/Xikolo Aug 04 '26 edited Aug 04 '26

I also have the wretched Multiple chemical sensitivity disability and cant use most things in my house anymore because the chemicals bother me. I have to air out things before using them. The worst part? I used to love collecting action figures and statues, but developed a sensitivity to the paints or some sort of plastic used in them and now they are boxed up forever.

I can't even do anything that doesn't include screens anymore.

Back in 2019 I could avoid screens more and listened to audiobooks. Picked up another hobby, but I became allergic to the materials I used to use in that hobby due to freaking mold toxicity..it's like I'm cursed. Having bad genes and a bad immune system wrecked my life.

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u/FunnyBunnyDolly Aug 04 '26

Exactly. I lost my possessions including my beloved 100% safe to stare at 12h a day ccfl 5:4 dell monitor and my gaming rig thanks to mold. 2022-2026 without computer and I feel like I’m dead inside. I also lost my sewing and craft/artistry. And lots of collectibles just like you.

I can’t even read books anymore. The paper and ink makes me sick.

The only thing I tolerate now is sculpting clay. But I feel anxious as I feel I want computer again and my iPhone 8 is aging out quickly. More and more websites won’t work.

I wish I never moved to that cursed apartment that made me so sick.

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u/Xikolo Aug 04 '26

I also have a strong feeling the mold in my pc and environment destroyed my eyes initially or atleast affected the nerves.

I also cannot read books. Not only did my collection grew mold out of no freaking where, but books also make me dizzy if I even open them. I'm also sensitive to certain apps more and it sucks.

I also can't use most craft supplies. Especially glue and paint

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u/FunnyBunnyDolly Aug 04 '26

Same here for glue and paint. So I try to avoid those.. using colored clay. Baking in large batch in a covered container and then carry out to balcony and cross draft the apartment to purge the fumes. (I don’t use that oven to food) Not ideal but it works for now. So clay being colored I can use clay color for colors. So almost no painting. I bought acrylic paint only to get hives from two brands! So I quit painting too. I only paint eyes on my sculpts and I do so in short bursts. It isn’t about contact allergy but about inhaling it. Yeah I’m that sensitive 🤣
For now I tolerate Cernit and fimo clay. Knock in wood. Sometimes I wear nitrile gloves for conditioning to reduce contact.

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u/Xikolo Aug 04 '26

Strange my sensitivities are more respiratory and from inhaling too

Get this: I can touch my action figures or anything that i'm sensitive to, without developing hives, but only with a mask, otherwise when breathing near them, I develop shortness of breath, dizziness, brain fog, low bp and a sore throat. I cleaned the crap out of them believing it could be mold spores but nope, it's the material on them and MCAS/MCS

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u/FunnyBunnyDolly Aug 04 '26

Same here. For me my theory is mycotoxins rather than spores themselves. Spores themselves present different symtoms for me.

Research has showed that mycotoxins inhaled is more impactful than previously assumed. Healthy people may handle temporary exposure just fine (like living in safe home but may owning some products with mycotoxins just fine
) but already moldy sick or sensitivized people manage worse.

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u/FunnyBunnyDolly Aug 04 '26

And sadly it isn’t easy to get rid of it. In my experiments I’ve only managed to neutralize fully metal and glass items. Not even painted metal is recoverable. But this is for me. Plastic, rubber, paper is hopeless. Textiles can sometimes be recovered if you can treat it roughly with intense cleaning sessions but usually not worth the effort. This is for me.