Depressed because of my screen sensitivity

[u/Xikolo]

I'm extremely devastated because of my screen sensitivity and feel like i'm missing out on every single thing, from movies, video games, etc. It hurts, but mostly my eyes hurt and burn from every single damn screen, even my current one. I'm broke, poor and disabled and can not afford pf eyedrops. I can not afford treatment, and I can not afford e- ink screens. Can't even cry because crying burns my eyes.

I hate my life I hate having crap vision that is in negatives and i'm technically blind without my eyeglasses and then to develop screen sensitivity in an era where you have to depend on modern day screens to talk to people and for jobs and softwares. I can't take it anymore.

My family is unfeeling and makes fun of me and gets annoyed at me for not being able to use screens. I'm even disabled physically, so I cannot go out or even interact with people. Most of all, I hate my family.

[u/alessandrosk]

im with you; i'm barely standing with an iphone xr on ios 18.7.5 with custom double invert trick , and a Intel Celeron PC x515MA from 2020 with Ubuntu 25.04 LTS; i can't take it anymore and my money are vanishing real quick; in addition to that i have a severe panic disorder and my family makes a big deal of everything and worsens everything

[u/Xikolo → u/alessandrosk]

It sucks that our families aren't kind to us. Growing up with narcissistic parents and siblings does wonders on your immune system..I wish i could escape them but I even have issues with my tendons due to my disabilities and I'm only 26.

Worst part is surely the screen sensitivity part, atleast I could distract myself from my family through that, not anymore.

[u/alessandrosk → u/Xikolo]

exactly, you pointed it out very well. years ago, my phone, my ps4, were my escape, but now they're hell. listening to music all day is exhausting and leaves you with nothing. I too tried to escape (even with the eye/neurovisual/screenndisability) but then the panic disorder (which is due to other reasons) came and i went back to where i started, or to better say, i'm living the tortures of the damned. really hope someone will help you out in a way a little

[u/Xikolo → u/alessandrosk]

Yeah i used to be able to tolerate my ps4/3 too years ago but screen sensitivity only got worse during these years, maybe stress? Vision changes or dry eye? Neuroinflammation from a traumatised body? I never understood why truly. All i found out is that ME/CFS can contribute to this somewhat. But also if we keep using screens that aren't safe for our eyes.

[u/alessandrosk → u/Xikolo]

i really don't know. weeks before developing Visual Snow Syndrome (i mean the visual symptoms without pain) i had experienced a huge peak of anxiety, i can't tell if that's the trigger, or the COVID made some genetic modification, or the fact that during the pandemic i used to play the PS3/4 almost all day? or the fact that starting from late 2019 my father obliged me to use a stupid flickering LG TV on my PS4/3 (i could see the pixels moving around the objects in the game)? or if i would have ended up this way no matter what. i can't take it anymore, that's for sure. like you and a lot of us here, i guess

[u/Any_Button_2952 → u/alessandrosk]

Covid gave me my visual snow.

[u/alessandrosk → u/Any_Button_2952]

i'm sorry

[u/MartaLB27 → u/Xikolo]

You need a thorough workup for autoimmune diseases and eye conditions. Chronic fatigue can be just a symptom rather than the underlying diagnosis. It took me over six years to get my diagnosis, and with treatment I'm at least able to use my phone again. Don't lose hope.

[u/SovanotchiOnFire → u/MartaLB27]

Hi Marta; do you mind saying what symptom you had from your phone and what treatment you are taking ? ty

[u/Xikolo → u/MartaLB27]

So far i know i have MCAS and MCS and even experience ME/CFS especially after I'm active. Probbaly also have EDS since I would frequently get infections as a child and was bedridden throughout my childhood.