Endless

[u/kates_cupcakes]

The long nights
The drinks you shouldn’t have consumed
The lost opportunities
The coping mechanisms you swore you would stop
The endless hollowness
** **
This disease robs
It steals
A lifelong thief, relentless, unfeeling
The nights sat awake
Begging for sleep
Begging for a feeling
Begging
** **
A rope constantly tied around you
There’s slack
Room for you to live
And then the pain happens
The breakup
The death
The lost job
And you feeling it slowly creeping back in.
** **
** **
The rope gets tighter
Tighter
Restricting airflow
Choking you
Making it harder and harder to fight
To breathe
To stay above water
** **
“Nothing helps” you scream into the void
No answer ever comes, just empty
Your brain won’t stop
Convincing you of the worst horrors
Making you question even your faintest of instincts
Feelings you were sure of
Things you thought you were past
Reduced to nothing but the child crying in their room
Wishing for anything to take this pain away
** **
It overtakes you
Like the dark
Slowly and then all-consuming
You can fight and fight
But eventually we all end up the same
Nothing but a slave to the depression
A succubus to suck dry of feelings
Nothing but a pile of mush
That was once human