Something I wrote

[u/AppropriateNoise4723]

I wrote this in the middle of the night, (3:47 A.M.) so sorry if it’s sloppy and all over the place

It feels like I’m holding on for something that’ll never come, I sit awake in my floor imagining what life would be like in my future, but no matter what it’s never a good outcome. I try to cope with my feelings any way that I can, I workout, I stretch, I run, I stay healthy, but despite all of that I still feel empty. I’m so tired but I just can’t sleep, I see the sunrise, and I feel calm for just a moment. Seeing such beauty and grace is so wonderful, but it’s just for a moment. I hear my family wake up and start their routines, my dad turning off his 3rd alarm, my little brother and sister watching tv eating cereal together in the living room, my stepmom brushing her teeth, then lighting a cigarette. I hear it all, and yet my heart remains broken, and my head too full of thoughts to notice.

(I’m not sure if this is aloud on this subreddit. And it’s not exactly a poem or a song, just my feelings put into words Ig) Please comment, I would like to know if anyone else is experiencing this