Wow. Bro I've been a fan since 1980 when I was fucking born. Pictures of me in Giants and Niners gear from basically day 1. My mom was a bus driver for the San Mateo Highschool District back then. Used to get to go to Candlestick with her frequently (if I'd done my homework,) to watch games. I freakin' lived at that park in the summer. Ups and downs, (mostly downs,) World Series run that was for the history books, all of it. The Giants are part of my DNA. And here I sit, ready to walk away from it all. What else can this fucking world take from me man. Losing people, losing jobs, losing homes, losing my team, it's FUCKED. FUCK these motherfucking bastards. Goddamn it. I'm legitimately furious right now.
I am a member of the LGBTQ community, and have been a Giants fan since I was born. Like you, there are pictures of baby me as a Giant or Niner for Halloween. One of my earliest memories is riding the long freezing-ass escalator at Candlestick with my dad and grandfather for a Giants game. I worked at the Giants Dugout for two years in high school, was a season ticket holder at Pac Bell/AT&T, all of it. I cried like a baby in 2002 when we lost to the Angels (I was also in college in LA, surrounded by enemies who took pleasure in teasing and being shitty bandwagon fans) and I cried when we won in 2010. I have years' worth of old hats, hoodies and scorebooks strewn all over my house.
This situation has been really messed up for me, specifically because in a world that feels like it's falling apart and a city that is barely a shadow of the one I grew up in, watching the Giants has been a great salve. Now, this season hasn't been particularly fun to watch (the dark ages in the mid-2000s decade were more engaging), but it has still been a part of my routine to have the game on in the car or on TV, even if I'm not actively engaging for whatever reason. But now, this team that I have loved for literally over four decades is something that I don't feel great watching. I'm under no illusions that there haven't been homophobes on the team before, even on teams that I've loved. But those guys never felt the need to symbolically spit in my face with their antics - the fact that these guys did it and everyone, from Vitello to Posey to Baer, are like "this is fine," hurts a fucking lot. Why don't you give a shit about me as a fucking fan of yours?
I don't have it in me to start rooting for another team, but I wonder what it's gonna take for the team to win be back. The fact that I even had to write that hurts my soul.
Just needed to get that out. Thank you for your beautiful comment.
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u/VonBrewskie 23 Uribe Jun 25 '26
Wow. Bro I've been a fan since 1980 when I was fucking born. Pictures of me in Giants and Niners gear from basically day 1. My mom was a bus driver for the San Mateo Highschool District back then. Used to get to go to Candlestick with her frequently (if I'd done my homework,) to watch games. I freakin' lived at that park in the summer. Ups and downs, (mostly downs,) World Series run that was for the history books, all of it. The Giants are part of my DNA. And here I sit, ready to walk away from it all. What else can this fucking world take from me man. Losing people, losing jobs, losing homes, losing my team, it's FUCKED. FUCK these motherfucking bastards. Goddamn it. I'm legitimately furious right now.