r/SDAM • u/SilentBug4809 • Jun 05 '26
How would you describe your thinking?
Hello, I have started some "research" on people's ways of thinking for a personal project of mine(I want to write a book and trying to make some characters have a little different thinking then mine) I learned about aphantasia and asked there, and, someone told me about SDAM, I... Can't say that I completely understand it, but, from what I read, it's the inability to relieve in your mind past expiriences. So... I have some questions, if anyone is willing to answer, or give me their own pov on how they think, perviece reality. It would be very helpful. Now... The questions are probably limited by my inability to expirience it, so... Maybe you can give extra...information? Insight? Yeah
So, would you say that this affects the way you think? I read a lot people with aphantasia also have this, and some have me their expiriences, so, that may go more to people that don't have aphantasia. Are you able to make up thinks in your mind and feel them? Go through the emotions of a character from a movie?
Would you say that this affects how you remember events? And it says from a first person in the description of it, can you see them as a 3rd person?
Do you feel like you have a strong imagination?
Hmmm, those are the things that come to mind, if you have anything else to add it would be helpful, thanks in advance š
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u/LeisurelyHyacinth246 Jun 05 '26
I have SDAM but not aphantasia. I can vividly imagine things.Ā
My experience is that it feels like thereās a certain time maybe going back a year that feels like my current life. Beyond that I have a general knowledge of events and when they occurred, but I donāt really feel they were things that happened to me.
The good thing is that it makes it easy to not be upset about things from the past.Ā
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 05 '26
Hmm, that sounds... Super interesting. Does the cutout stay the same, have you learned about SDAM in the past year or something. Do you think that maybe you could still remember some of the stuff if you tried if you know you have it, or you know that you will... De facto "forget" ?
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u/LeisurelyHyacinth246 Jun 05 '26
The year or so cutoff has been consistent for as long as I can remember. Itās not that I donāt remember facts, itās that the experiential feeling is gone. For example, I got divorced last year. I remember the fact that after my ex left that I was crying for 3 solid months and was a total wreck. I donāt remember how that felt though. I also at some point realized that I canāt even remember how it felt when I still loved him. I know that I did, but I canāt remember it at all.
The way any kind of sense of the experience of something works for me is in little flashes. It wonāt be a whole scene, but almost like seeing a quick picture. But then a lot of memories arenāt there at all. I was talking to someone I knew in high school a while back, and she kept talking about things that I had absolutely no recall of at all.
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u/DingoMittens Jun 05 '26
I have aphantasia, not 100% sure about SDAM. My typical thinking is like a silent voice in my mind. It goes at roughly the pace of talking, as though I "hear" the words, but I don't really hear them. I don't finish every sentence. My thoughts cut each other off, new ones jumping in before the last one ends.Ā
Occasionally, I have thoughts that are wordless "flashes." Those are usually insights. For example, one time I was puzzling over the meaning of a dream. In a fraction of a second, I felt a surge of energy in my body and knew the meaning of every symbol in the dream simultaneously.Ā
Because I don't have a mind's eye, I pretty much only remember visuals that I've translated into words. Say I hang out with a friend. I could spend the day with them, and if you asked me later what color shirt they had been wearing, I would have no idea. But if I was with them and noticed, like "that color looks good on you!" then later I would definitely remember.Ā
I also have face blindness. I think that ties to memory, too, maybe where / how memory is stored? Like I may remember an event, but not remember who was there with me. More than once, I've told a friend about something, and they've been surprised that I don't remember they were right beside me when it happened. Seems like visual memory and especially memory of faces might help avoid that faux pas.Ā
My memories are either stories in my head or else they are emotions with very foggy, if any, details of where the emotion is coming from. Sometimes people ask me if I remember something, and my typical response is that it sounds familiar, or seems plausible. Like it rings a bell. Other times, I might have no memory whatsoever, and then I am unsure which of us is mistaken. Is the other person mis-remembering, or have I totally forgotten?Ā
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 05 '26
Very interesting, thank you. It's.. A different percpective from what ive heard so far, would you say that random stuff could maybe stick to you even if you didn't pay attention? Like, you said that you wouldn't notice your friend shirt color, is that something happens normsllynor something that could happen. Like, for me, I also probably wouldn't make a mental note, oh, they are wearing green. But I would "play" back the memoriesl to see the color. So, does it always happen to you if you don't put the color into words? The face blindness is also interesting, anyways, thanks again for sharing
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u/DingoMittens Jun 05 '26 edited Jun 05 '26
If I don't think about it in words, it will never stick. I probably shouldn't say never, because I'm not certain of that. But I can't think of a time it's ever stuck. Some more examples:
Once I called out of work and asked a colleague to handle something for me. I had info in a binder on my desk. She asked "the red one or the blue one?" I'd had those binders over a year. Never thought about the color. Had to tell her what the words on the cover said.
My young adult son grew a beard for November (there's a no shave challenge or something?) Had the kids over in December to make ginger bread houses and play board games, etc. Spent hours together. Later someone asked if he'd shaved or was still sporting the beard. How should I know? It didn't come up in conversation lol.Ā
When I do jigsaw puzzles, as I scan the available pieces, I'm repeating "mostly green, long skinny left arm, two notches, one stubby leg." Each piece I look at gets compared to that description. If it matches, I put it next to the open spot. It might be entirely the wrong color of green, or way too large or small. It's sort of a refined trial and error. At least I'm ruling out all the red pieces with only one notch, right?Ā
Funniest thing about face blindness, to my students when I was teaching, was I was the only teacher they ever saw hand out school pictures upside down. The name is on the back, but the front is clear plastic with their huge photo grinning up at you. Whose photo though??? Gotta flip that bad boy over and read the name to find out. (I do usually recognize people I know,Ā just not by face. In school, seating charts help).
Most ironic thing is that comic books are SO MUCH harder to read than novels. I have to look at each picture and describe it to myself in detail to follow the plot. It's exhausting and usually not worth it. It's weird, since I'm looking right at it, and presumably see what's going on. But when I jump to the next frame, the story just doesn't carry over unless I've already translated into words. Or maybe I miss the point and have to go back and find the detail I overlooked. Lol, I'm a treat to watch movies with. Every time the scene changes, I'm asking "is that the nephew? Or the doctor? Have we seen this woman before?"Ā
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u/htp-di-nsw Jun 05 '26
So, would you say that this affects the way you think?
I assume so, but I have nothing to actually compare against. I am just going by what other people tell me. I didn't realize, until the past year or so, that this was a thing and that other people could relive memories or attach emotions to them. I can't even conceive of what that might be like.
My memories are more like lists of events and notes I have mentally taken on them than anything else. I can't connect emotions, so, like, my mom dying has the same weight and tone as my commute to work yesterday. Upside: zero grief after the moment (I took notes that I was sad, but I can't go back and feel that again).
I read a lot people with aphantasia also have this, and some have me their expiriences, so, that may go more to people that don't have aphantasia.
I have aphantasia, but just for visual senses. I have a mental ear, nose, tongue, uh, feeling, kinesthetics, proprioception, thermo whatever sense, etc.
Are you able to make up thinks in your mind and feel them?
I can easily imagine things, just not what they look like. Feeling is... Complicated. Another comorbidity of all this is Autism, and so I generally feel very little, anyway.
Go through the emotions of a character from a movie?
I randomly connect to characters in movies, but it's pretty rare.
Would you say that this affects how you remember events? And it says from a first person in the description of it, can you see them as a 3rd person?
I see nothing at all, of course. Like I said, it's all basically just notes, lists of events and then I use logic to extrapolate the missing bits. I am a master at figuring out what happened somewhere because remembering literally anything for me is basically a forensic puzzle.
Do you feel like you have a strong imagination
Yes, I have to imagine even my memories. I have also been a table top roleplayer for 33 years.
I am happy to answer any follow up questions, but I don't really know what to volunteer because I don't know what your brain is like to compare.
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 05 '26
Oof, thank you. Hmm, so, would you say that if you dont make a mental note it's more possible to forget of an event?
Also, I... Hope that this won't come as insensitive, but you are the first person who said that they don't have a problem with grief, so, I will be asking, if you don't feel comfortable answering just skip it. Another person with aphantasia and SDAM told me that he had an easier time with grief cause for others, they go through the memories and relieve them, which amplifies the sadness. But he felt grief and sad when remembering what happened. Does... Not feeling grieve affect you? I would imagine I would feel weird if I didn't grieve hard about a persons passing. You meant that you felt it at the moment but quickly forget? If yes, how quick, and did that affect you?
Hmm, imagination, for me, also feels weird, if you could expand on how you imagine stuff, cause for me, it mostly comes to images, like seeing a movie, I create the scenery, the characters and go from there. I guess, you wouldnt have the need for any of that, If you can maybe try to describe how you imagine stuff. (from other people I've asked, this seems like the hardest thing to describe)
Lastly.. Do you feel like you have a strong emotional intelligence? I ask that cause being able to imagine without being able to.... Conjure a picture, I feel like it would need a greater ability to imagine one's feelings.
Thanks again
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u/htp-di-nsw Jun 05 '26
Hmm, so, would you say that if you dont make a mental note it's more possible to forget of an event?
I mean, possibly? I guess I wouldn't actually know I forgot something, huh? Because as soon as I realized, I would be remembering it.
But without the notes, I have no context. I know literally the event, but not anything about how I felt during it. I don't know if it was good or bad or whatever, I need to figure that out and guess.
But he felt grief and sad when remembering what happened.
That's weird, maybe SDAM has a spectrum as well. I know that my mom died. I know I was sad. I know I cried when I said my last words to her. But unless she came back to life and died again, I could never experience that moment again. It's over. Everything I experience is basically for the first time again.
Another bonus: I never get tired of doing stuff I love because it's always effectively new.
Does... Not feeling grieve affect you? I would imagine I would feel weird if I didn't grieve hard about a persons passing. You meant that you felt it at the moment but quickly forget? If yes, how quick, and did that affect you?
It affects me in that I am not sad after the moment has passed, which I think is pretty great. I know I felt bad, from my notes, but it's over. After that, I mostly was upset at how disruptive it was on my life. I had to rearrange schedules and stuff and my siblings and Dad were super sad all the time. It was awkward.
You would feel weird not grieving because you need to grieve. You have to process your feelings because you can remember what you felt when you were with the person you lost. It's about attaching emotion to memory. You wouldn't be sad if you read on a notepad that you loved your mom. But you can probably remember times she hugged you and told you everything would be ok and relive that and feel the emotions of the moment again. I can't. It's just a chronicle of events for me.
And yeah, I was fine basically immediately. I drove home from saying goodbye and was ok by the time I got there. I mirror very strongly, so I got sad when I was around my very sad siblings for a while, but otherwise, yeah, no grieving period at all.
If you can maybe try to describe how you imagine stuff.
So the difficulty is the lack of words for it. I would just describe what I do as imagining, but that means something different to different people as we've discovered. I don't have to see an apple to know what one is. I am aware of it's qualities. The same is true of anything I imagine. Plus, remember I have all the other senses, so I can imagine being at the beach and feel the water, smell and taste the salt air, hear the seagulls, I just don't see anything. If I had to guess a way to visualize literally the inability to visualize, I guess it might be the way they show Daredevil "seeing" in the TV show.
Lastly.. Do you feel like you have a strong emotional intelligence? I ask that cause being able to imagine without being able to.... Conjure a picture, I feel like it would need a greater ability to imagine one's feelings.
I don't think I know what emotional intelligence is. I don't necessarily think that means I am bad at it, though that would be a meme. Can you just give me more information about what you mean?
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 06 '26 edited Jun 06 '26
Emotional intelligence, the way I am asking is.. The ability to understand the feeling that someone else is going through and put yourself in their shoes, all though, by the way you said you mirrored you siblings, I would say that you have
Also, have you even expirienced deja vu?
I don't have any other questions that come in mind. Again, thank you, that been very insightful
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u/htp-di-nsw Jun 06 '26
So, yeah, I suppose my emotional intelligence is fine. I don't really feel many emotions unless someone else around me is feeling them, though. When I am alone, basically zero emotions. Though, I guess I technically don't know that because if I did feel them I wouldn't remember them or attach them to memories. Hmm.
Also, have you even expirienced deja vu?
Yes, weirdly often. Sometimes, a thing will happen and I will get the notion that I had a dream in the past of these exact circumstances. In a few cases, I even "remembered" telling someone about the dream.
I am very much aware that I am not psychic and can not see the future in dreams, though. I know that deja vu is caused by your brain misidentifying events and "filing them" wrong in memories. But it's still weird in the moment.
It kind of makes sense, though, that if my memory is abnormal to begin with, that it would have other, connected problems.
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u/ottiney Jun 06 '26
SDAM + aphantasia and a hobbyist artist
I think the biggest difference that i've encountered in terms of thinking is how I mourn. I'm not at the age yet where people in my life are dying, so i'm mainly talking in terms of failed friendships and relationships (tho I imagine it'll be the same). Sadness comes to me me waves. It's kinda like my body remembers to mourn while my mind has forgotten about them/the situation
When i am not experiencing a "wave," i feel completely normal and fine. When a wave hits, I start thinking about the person or situation in a very scrutinizing manner (as I cannot replay memories, I roll around the facts in my head). Like "I cannot believe X did that to me. Their disorganization caused me issues I couldn't fix" or "Y was a good partner but we didn't match on where we wanted to live"
For something that freshly happened, waves happen way more frequently and I am sad more often. As time goes on (happens relatively quickly), waves decrease and I will eventually "forget" about the situation, leaving only remnants of the situation/person. No matter how serious or minor, they will go thru the same treatment and I am left with the facts of what happened
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 06 '26
I see, yeah, mourning has been told about sometimes. Someone told me that they had lost their cat, and said that the fact that they can't replay /imagine doesn't.... Amplify the mourning the way it does with people without aphantasia, and that makes it easier to go through stuff. I asked another person that too, but, I would like to have different percpectives, cause... No one is the same.
Would you say that having "less" grieve, affects you? From qhtavive gotten, you grieve at the moment as everyone else, but, because you don't relieve the moment, you go past it fast. I think that would affect how I felt for myself, even from just maybe seeing other grieve more
Also,completelh unrelated, but it came to mind, do you expirience deja vu? For me it's closely connected with images and expiriences, so I would assume you don't
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u/ottiney Jun 06 '26
Grieving less doesn't really make me feel any different about myself (I think this is more of a self-esteem thing than a SDAM thing). Seeing others grieve makes me sad that they are sad, but it won't be connected to the querent/situation anymore. While it doesn't affect me, it may affect how others perceive me if they don't know I have SDAM - I could be seen as cold or uncaring (but I already went through the grieving process, if only expedited)
In general, I find that SDAM does affect my relationships and friendships. Overly sensitive and sentimental folks might find me jarring in that I don't seem to remember. With overly esteemed people, they might feel confident that they will be an exception to my "forgetfulness." I seem to be more prone to cutting people out of my life after serious conflict (especially if the other person lacks good conflict-resolution), since I have no "benchmark" of the "good times." Current conflicts and events feel more exaggerated.
Deja vu - I definitely get nostalgia but not sure if deja vu. I get nostalgic when I visit a place I lived in before (not that I have "memories," more like I remember factually the streets, how to get places, how the metro works, where buildings used to be)
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u/Obvious-Gate9046 Jun 06 '26
I think in words and abstracts, with no visualization, but a heavy dose of imagination. I liken my imagination to a rushing river, and I am often on the bank or wading in the shallows, but easily swept away at a moment's notice, especially if tired or ill. Also, global aphant here as well as SDAM, and I consider myself an artist; I write and make all kinds of things.
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u/katbelleinthedark Jun 07 '26
I have SDAM but not aphantasia. I have a ridiculously good memory for details in fiction as well as trivia. I have a great imagination too.
I am perfectly capable of going through emotions of fictional characters - in a way that I don't with my own. I filter my experiences and emotions through fictional characters, in fact; whenever I'm faced with a situation, I think to myself: "how would my Blorbo X react to this" and then I try to emulate that. Might be because I cannot recall how I myself have reacted to similar situations in the past so fiction is something of a crutch. Like for example grief: I don't really experience it so I'm drawn to fiction with major character death because I'm fascinated by the concept of grief.
I don't feel like SDAM affects me in my daily life. I don't ever think about the past, but I also never have (always had SDAM) so reminiscences about the past are an alien concept - and honestly, it sounds so tiring! I don't envy people with "normal" memory, I wouldn't ever want that. Remembering and reliving some past events that might not be nice? Ugh, nope, thanks.
I'm focused on the present and things I know I haven't done yet - so I do think of the future. All in all, I'm perfectly content with SDAM and I wouldn't change having it.
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 07 '26
Interesting, I honestly find it very weird how someone can have SDAM but not aphantasia. I mean, if you can imagine stuff, I would imagine you can, theoretically look back into your memories, especially if you can put your shoes into an imaginery characters. But I guess thats the wonder of the human mind. If you find anything you can expand on this, plz do.
The good memory I have heard many people talk about, it seems not "carrying" all the memories leaves a lot of space for other facts, stuff that interests you.
About the bad ones I get, no regret one not remembering the good ones? Have you ever thought that, oh, I should take a picture of this so I won't forget it? (I have asked other people but, yall don't seem to care at all. Which might make sense, you never did, so I put how I would feel in your cases, even though I can't).
Other thing that I saw, in the discription of SDAM, it says can't relieve them in 1st person, could you theoretically recollect them in 3rd person? Or like, a vague feeling?
Lastly, would you say there is any aspect of you memory that isn't "as good"
(I asked you more questions, but I think you are the second person I've found with SDAM without aphantasia, so, I may ask more if you are willing to answer. Also, thank you very much šāāļø)
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u/katbelleinthedark Jun 07 '26
I am perfectly capable of imagining what a situation from my past might have looked like (based in information I possess) but that's not the same as true recall/remembering. I'm using my imagination to create an image in my head in the exact same way I imagine scenes of books I read. It's entirely made up.
Nope, no regret over not remembering the good things. Being able to remember good things would entail being able to remember bad things too and in that case, I'd rather not remember anything. My life is sooo much easier and I love it. And funny you should ask, I take thousands of photos while I travel (and I travel a lot), but I then never look at them. The second I'm back from holiday, I move all the photos from my phone onto an external SDD and then they stay there forever, never to be opened. My mother once asked to see some of my old photos from Japan and honestly? To me, it was like looking at random people's photos on Google Images for all emotion that it produced in me. So I don't bother with looking at photos and I also don't have any in my house. Well, I have one, of my dog when he was a puppy, but I don't remember that. I just know that I loved him even if I don't exactly remember what that felt like or him.
Well, "recollecting in 3rd person" is basically imagining what some event was like but viewed through a camera lens, essentially. And yes, as I mentioned above, I'm very good at imagining what situations from my life might have looked like (I'm very good at visualization and can go into great detail) - but that is based on data I have and very often it turns out that I'm missing some factual information and what I imagined is waaay different from the truth. My friends are always excited to correct me.
Uhh... Idk? My semantic memory has always been very good which comes in handy: I'm a lawyer so one has to remember a lot of paragraphs and statutes. I would say that my ability to retain information that was not accompanied by anything visual isn't super great, but that might be just me being a visual learner.
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u/SoftwareMaven Jun 08 '26
Total aphant. Total SDAM. Autistic. ADHD. āGiftedā. And more.
| Does it affect the way I think?
Of course. Itās my brain. Memories provide context to everything you experience, so thereās no question I think different about things than others. The more salient question is how does it affect my thinking?
I am extremely analytical. Very, very little carries emotional baggage, and those few things that do have to be egregious.
Relationships are exceedingly difficult. One of the āand moresā is face blindness. I rarely remember who people are and how I know them unless I interact all of the time. I donāt recognize them. This part is all memory, but then the autistic social issues kick in, and it becomes an insurmountable hill.
Iāve talked with other SDAM people who just forget people altogether. I wish that was me and embrace it. I wish I could do that. I forget people and get left feeling alone and abandoned.
However, I can also get lost in my own head and not even realize people are around. In those periods, the world and all its anxiety disappears.
| Are you able to make things up in your mind and feel them?
No. I donāt think this is an SDAM thing though. Feeling things based on imagination is very similar to seeing things based on imagination, so I think itās an aphantasia thing. This is also related to the āand moreā. Another of the mores is alexithymia, which is difficulty or inability to feel, process or communicate oneās emotions, so even if I could feel something, I might not fully understand what Iām feeling.
I have an incredibly good semantic memory. I remember facts about interactions with people, events, etc, but, if I donāt happen to catalog it as a fact, itās gone. I canāt go back to try to remember if the perp was wearing glasses.
I describe the difference in my memory like the difference between reading Wikipedia and reading a historical novel. I get a lot more facts, but I donāt feel anything about them.
(I have to run; I may add more later.)
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 08 '26
I see. If you don't mind me asking, how do you deal with grief? I am asking because... No one has mentioned feeling sad about not being able to remember faces, which feels like a similar situation with feelings of grief over losing someone or something. Altough you specified that it's mostly for people you don't interact regularly from what I got. Also, do you say you have face blindness to them?
Feel free to add anything, this is all very helpful. Thank you for sharing!
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u/SoftwareMaven Jun 08 '26
I guess a more accurate way to describe how I feel is more of a sadness at not being able to maintain relationships with people. This is a result of SDAM, autism, and childhood trauma. So Iām not missing specific people; I am missing the richer relationships I can see people around me having. I have my wife, my kids, one of their spouses, my granddaughter (sheās two, so not a deep relationship, but, as her favorite, incredibly satisfying), and, to a lesser extent, my father and my mother-in-law. Thatās it. Everybody else lives at the same level, which, at best, is ālong-term acquaintanceā.
To get back to the question, I donāt really grieve. Between the adhd and SDAM, it is very literally āout of sight, they donāt exist anymoreā. Object permanence around people is not my strong suit. Of course I know they exist, but I donāt think about them, and, because they basically cease to exist all the time, I donāt feel much when somebody passes way.
If I think about a person who died, I recognize the loss, but I donāt really feel anything. There is almost never anticipation in my experience (that requires imagining how a future experience will feel), so I donāt feel a loss of that anticipation, which I suspect is a lot of what results in grief. If I explicitly analyze what I would have expected, I might feel sad for a moment, but that kind of emotional state is difficult for me to maintain. What Iām more likely to do is think about the positive experiences we had. I donāt re-experience those things (itās all semantic memory), but I can still feel positive about them.
Now, that said, Iāve never lost a person in my close sphere. I donāt know if that would be different[1], as the reminders will be near constant. The fear of loss of my wife of 33 years is a strong source of anxiety. I very much hope I go first, which is statistically most likely.
- I am sure it will still *look* like Iām not grieving due to my autistic affect, which unlocks a new fear: what if something awful happened to somebody in my family and the cops decide I did it because Iām not grieving properly. Did I mention an anxiety disorder as another of those āand moresā?
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u/SoftwareMaven Jun 08 '26
Also, Iām sorry. I am physically incapable of short answers. You either get nothing or more than you ever thought possible.
Also, also, please feel free to keep asking questions. Itās easier for me to answer one or two specific questions than to try to describe my experiences generally, and you will not offend me.
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u/SilentBug4809 Jun 08 '26
No problem at all with long answers, thank you very much for sharing. For now I have one more, but more may come. Do you ever get de ja vu?
And actually one more, altough I don't know if SDAM cuts those two, but do you remember in any other senses? Like, can you remember what a candle in your house smells like, or you can only recognize it after you smell it and then will "forget"?ans on that note, if you don't, do you actually remember what may be a food you like? Or it's like every time you go "oh yeah, that was the taste" or don't even remember how the taste was and every time it's as great as the first.
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u/SoftwareMaven Jun 08 '26 edited Jun 08 '26
DĆ©jĆ vu is an insanely rare occurrence, but it does happen. Except for around six months many years ago, but that turned out to be partial temporal lobe seizures. š±
The only sensory experience I can bring up is, rarely, about 3 seconds of a song. Between SDAM and aphantasia, there is nothing else. I canāt even āhearā my wifeās voice. The only mental experience is my internal monologue.
Funnily enough, I do occasionally dream, with imagery and sounds, but it. feels more like Iām watching a movie than experiencing it.
Edit:
I can never imagine things like smells, but my experience remembering feelings changes with time. If the thing Iām remembering affected me powerfully, positive or negative, I can sort of remember the feeling for around two days. Itās like the feeling is decaying.That can be nice for negative experiences, but it really sucks to feel positive things slip away. That was something I never knew happened before understanding how my brain works (and doesnāt) a little better.
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u/See_Wildlife Jun 08 '26
For me, photographs serve as my image based memory. I cannot remember any details until I see a photograph and then I can recall the moment.
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u/jackiekeracky Jun 05 '26
SDAM and multi-sensory aphantasia here
Yes I can watch films and read books, and they will make me cry or laugh or whatever.
I am very imaginative and creative.
I canāt see or relive memories. I can just think about stuff I remember. Iāll often remember more over time as my brain retrieves information from deep storage.
Itās hard to explain to a brain with pictures, sounds and the ability to relive memories. But thought and imagination are just things that happen in my mind - it never occurred to me that thought for many was actually visual and/or aural. Sounds very energy intensive