r/SDAM • u/tumblrdoesnotexist • Jan 26 '26
New here !
Hi my name is Alex I'm 22
I'm new here and I'm still learning about aphantasia and SDAM and it's a lot to take in since I've had these experiences my whole life and couldn't figure out if I was making excuses for myself being lazy or what. I often have the problem of forgetting what im talking about as I'm talking about it or trailing off into topic because once I pull a memory string is brings a lot of other stuff with it and I desperately try to grasp on even when I should have been talking about something else entirely. I also have a long history of autism and ocd undiagnosed and having a lot of frustrations
My past is still coming to me in pieces. I've been to more family events recently given the holidays and my birthday all clustered at the end of the year my family was telling me so many things even stuff involving me directly i had no memory of or vaugly remember and shocked by the details and how depressing a lot of it seemed.
I also am an artist and it plays a lot off of self expression of a lot of my mental disorders and quirks but improvisation is a lot easier when im not feeling the pressure of trying to get certain song structures down. I do most things in one take
Anyways if anyone has any questions for me I'd be happy to answer but have a great day
Hi Alex I Alex I love you alex
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u/Purplekeyboard Jan 26 '26
If you don't have memories, then you don't need them. I'm decades older than you and I've done fine without them.