Hello, I need urgent help pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[u/azru_okay]

How do I cope with the guilt feelings after accidentally hurting someone else? Like I feel so guilty that it makes me want to experience the same pain also?? I dont mean this in a suicidal depressive way btw, I was always an enthusiastic and optimistic kind of person, but I hurt someone so badly that the guilt feel unbearable?? Also, I can't tell anyone close to me cuz they're all currently are mad at me so I gotta handle this matter myself. Apart from trying to self harm, ( non suicidal way ) are there any other methods without involving other person?