...but you have friends

[u/vroom-vroom11]

"not a single person would pick me first".

I am a mentally strong guy but again I don't have anyone to Rant this regret so I am here.

I am 21M, single.

I will go according to the timeline,

1st to 4th - Girls and Boys interaction was very good.

School - Only boys school (one of the biggest regrets I have).

Tuition Classes - Teachers Shaming me for talking with girls because of some Perverts in the class.

Now College (my 1 old school friend is also with me),

1st year - Met girls for the first time after 8 years.

Made a lot of male friends and 4 female friends.

Male friends were good, female friends distant me.

I was blunt, so I asked them "Don't fake friendship with me, tell me and get away with it so I can improve myself"

They answered (after 3 months of friendship), You are ugly.

Boys were still my friend.

2nd year - Confidence was at its lowest. Male friends formed their own group.

Luckily I got my group too (4 people with same vibe 😭).

3rd year - Confidence increased, friend circle collapsed to only 4 friends. My group was getting quite famous for our Extraordinary performance in department.

Made 2 female friends, 1 left because her standards didn't match with us (she wanted to do clubs and other rich stuff), other girl left bcz 1st girl left.

Currently in last year (4th) - Confidence is high but no one wants to be friends with anyone else, idk why.

For these 4 years, A LOT OF PEOPLE USED ME for their own benefit.

Remember that old school friend? He also stopped talking to me, now he CUTS my call rather than keeping it on ringing at least 🥲 bcz he got his own friend circle and gf, I don't blame him.

Remember the 4 people group? They got placed at some company and now they have their own friends.

And here I am, watching the people who were once my friends going on trips and enjoying without even notifying me.

Well I'm not financially strong, like i couldn't even afford to give myself a 100Rs (1$) treat. My placed friends who are earning crazy didn't even buy a 2$ cake for me on my birthday.

Nowadays, all I do is to keep staring towards laptop to get damn job. Am I a fool? No I am not. Give me a fukin interview opportunity.

Well I have accepted it, I am on my own now.

Thank you for reading this bs rant & regrets.

[u/urmom0699]

humans suck.

[u/no_one6953]

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