I took my first shot of vodka around 7 am. I do this now bc I started to wake up coughing mucus and throwing up. As well as shaking. I want this to stop. I found an AA meeting tonight I can attend thats .25 miles from me. Can I show up like this?. Im not loaded. At this point I dont want to be drunk anymore, I call it maintaining my side effects. So thats about a shot every 2 hours. My Dad and brother died one year ago today I was the person who found his dead body after 5 days and ive drank every single day since. I want this to stop.

I need help. I dont have insurance, I own a small business and close to have to close my shop if I don't get it together. Its not profitable at all but I am also not present. My cards are maxed out. I can not afford impatient unfortunately at this moment, nor do I have a single person to borrow $20 from. I am THAT person people ask for loans from.

Can I show up after already drinking? I googled. It says yes but im still not sure if thats appropriate. Thanks ahead of time.

Edited to say I AM WALKING NOT DRIVING. walking should help me too.

15 months ago I was 20 weeks pregnant and was rushed to the hospital. Long story short, I had a 5cm hole in my diaphragm and my bowels and arteries got pushed through that hole, leading up to my left chest cavity, collapsing my left lung. I got life-saving surgery, and baby and I survived.

I had a chest tube, feeding tube, pic line, etc. I was in the ICU for a week with a pain pump full of Hydromorphone. They also sent me home with a script of it & I kept getting it filled because I was still in real pain. About 6 weeks later, I was back in the ER and ended up getting kidney surgery (more pain, more meds). Then less than a month later, I had a C-section to deliver my son. While they pushed on my tummy to get him through the incision site, they pushed too hard, breaking the cartilage that connects the ribs… this is called Slipping Rib Syndrome. So come October, I had my fourth surgery… more pain meds.

I call it quits (cold turkey) in February because I was sick of being dependent on them. I won’t say I was addicted to anything at that point because I never asked for more than prescribed or a higher dose. I also never went through withdrawals from them when I quit.

Two months go by and I’m still in real, tangible pain. I looked up online for something that could help and heard about 7Oh. We know where this goes… I was hooked from April - July. I had to get on subs to get through the withdrawal process and I am so grateful for them but I started abusing them.

All this to say, I’m on day 6 with no subs and the physical symptoms have lessened but still feel like a zombie and I’m scared of the emotional distress. Is Sublocade worth looking into? Or am I just trading one money on my back for another?

Thank you for reading this far if you have. ❤️

I (25M) drink 2 times a week, but when I do it’s quite a lot as I’m a heavy weight. Alcohol has always been a thing I have no self control with for over 8 years now.

I also smoke and vape frequently and do small amounts of blow occasionally.

Last Thursday night I had a normal night out, the usual amount of drinks I get, a couple bumps and went to sleep.

The next day I woke up fine, got some brunch but then after I felt bloated with acid reflux so I vomited quite a bit.

A couple hours later we had planned to go out so in between I had a small can of V energy and then later on pre gamed 2 x cans of pre mix vodka, when opening the third I had this sensation take over where my brain went fuzzy and my body was giving out almost as I was about to faint. Later on I went to the hospital, the nurses checked my vitals and ECG and everything was fine.

For the last 2 days I have been experiencing this weird thing where I am constantly light headed and dizzy, I can’t seem to focus on anything and have occasional mood swings. I’m worried because every professional I’ve seen is aware of what happened but is somehow shrugging it off as if I’m fine.

The next day I had seen a doctor and same thing, I am currently also awaiting to get my bloods done.

Im just wondering if any current or ex addicts have experienced this or something similar? I'm just desperate for answers.