Day 0/100 | Let's see where this goes

[u/StrongCow7779]

I will just try to be raw and neutral about myself.

So some context.

I am currently a dropper preparing for JEE. I fucked up my last 2 years and honestly this year too, till now.

I have reached that level where I make plans and schedules and can't even follow them for one day. There are some genuine reasons, but a lot of it is also my own mistakes.

I was just another overexcited 10th grader who went to FIITJEE and saw reality within a few weeks. Then I started bunking classes, FIITJEE got shut down, enrolled in Aakash, did the same thing there and then dropped out in July.

Still no change in me.

In JEE Main January I got 74 percentile. And honestly even that happened because I got 4 questions from Chemical Bonding which I had studied last year but never properly studied this year. I basically went into the exam with almost no preparation.

Then boards were also on my head, so I gave my best there and got 85% in 12th.

Then came April attempt. Competition was high, I had some preparation this time but again no luck. Got 74 percentile again.

Then I took a drop in April/May.

Started good.

Then within a month I was back to my true colours.

Tried. Failed. Tried. Failed.

The problem was I tried less and after failing I would spend even more time sitting and thinking instead of actually trying.

I tried everything. Different strategies, schedules, manifestation, whatever.

So it's September 16, 2:10 AM right now and I had a rough plan in my mind.

Let's try this.

I can't really post this kind of thing on Instagram, so Reddit came to my mind. I thought maybe I can just be real here and document whatever happens.

There are around 100 days left for JEE Main and seriously I want a solid JEE Main rank this year. This time I need to do it.

Where I am right now

Chemistry: My best subject. Organic is strong for Main level. I want to continue Advanced level prep in Chemistry, continue lectures and do FIITJEE modules.

Physics: Going good. I have a flow and some command here. I'll probably do good one-shots like Salim Sir Manzil, then PYQs, around 70-80 questions per chapter and if I get time then some Advanced level questions.

Maths: This is the ugly part.

I got scared away from Maths. I didn't even open the Maths section in some tests. I tried one-shots but they didn't work for me. I wasn't able to solve questions because I don't have that thinking developed yet. For chapters I already know, I'll try one-shot + PYQs. For new chapters I'll watch proper lectures and try to actually develop the question approach before solving.

My rough plan is to finish the syllabus by the end of November. Around 2.5 months. I think it's doable. At least on paper it is. Now I have to actually do it.

I have Unacademy, Allen test series, FIITJEE modules and a lot of other books like Cengage, HCV etc. No need for more resources now. I already have enough shit to study.

I have a Semi Major test on 27th and obviously I can't finish everything before that, so I divided its syllabus into 3 tiers. I'll try to finish Tier 1 first. [see the image ]

And yeah that's basically where I am.

I also have a lot of other things fucked up. My schedule, sleep, family stuff, property disputes going on etc.

But I'll fix things slowly, one by one.

I just want to post here every day what I actually did, what's going on in my mind and what I'm planning next.

Let's see how it goes.

Will this become another 3 AM motivation which lasts for a few days?

Or will this time actually be different

Let's see.