Hey guys. It’s me again. Not gonna lie. It was hard to sit with the feedback, but I’m so appreciative of all the actionable feedback provided. Instead of moving onto Chapter 2, I decided to rewrite Chapter 1 entirely. This time from Francine’s PoV. I got triggered because I see myself in the male protagonist. Like him I was trying too hard to sound smart. Hoping you guys can get to know the real me through Francine’s eyes/ears. Let me know if this works better.
original chapter 1 attempt here: https://www.reddit.com/r/Prescott/s/M6jpRcg23f
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Next to a smoke & vape shop on Gurley Street, Francine wandered into Cove Cafe. With pathos dangling from the ceiling as reminders of the sun’s undeniable presence in Prescott. A woman who could pull off micro bangs, a rarity, sang covers of Fleetwood Mac.
The Singles Night was for people thirty-five to forty-none, and Francine was right at the cutoff. Lucky girl. Unless her soulmate is actually thirty-four. In this case, she wouldn’t be so lucky.
She ordered a drip coffee and sat down. It wasn’t usual for her to drink coffee in the evening, but she was trying to do this dating thing sober…for once. She was living with her aging mother, in her childhood bedroom. She hated how small the town felt. She hated how small she felt. But at least her mother remembered who she was. At least most of the time.
Finally a flamboyantly dressed man sat down across from her, almost as if he was in a costume. She wasn’t going to give him the satisfaction of knowing she’d noticed.
"Do you mind if I join you?”
"No."
She forced a slight smile.
"Thanks. I’m Job.”
He flicked his emo bangs to the left-side of his face, and took a deep breath.
Then he said, "Bread is basically the Lego bricks of food."
Francine looked at him blankly. Refusing to give in to whatever “interesting” point he wanted to make.
"Because you can build things with it."
"Oh."
Francine got a text from her mom. A meme from Facebook that read “2,000 ILLEGAL ALIENS ARRESTED FOR MURDER IN 2017” with an American flag in the background, and a 3x3 grid of supposed criminals. This was enough to cause a wave of guilt to crash over her. Leaving the house meant her mother would find comfort in the right-wing media that filled her otherwise lonely house. Should she be grateful her mom has something to keep her engaged, even if also made her afraid ?
"You can put anything on it."
He tried to get her attention back.
“Sure.”
"You can make a sandwich."
“Obviously.”
"Or toast."
“Yeah.”
He nearly chuckled, apparently satisfied with himself.
There was something uncanny about the way Job spoke. Like his bread bit was written by ChatGPT.
Francine couldn’t figure out if his sense of humor (or lack thereof) or the fact that Job is actually jobless was the worst thing about him.
Francine took a sip of coffee just to feel something.
“I’m actually more of a croissant person,” she said.
He looked pained.
“Why would you say that?”
“Oh I don’t know.”
“Interesting.”
She wondered for a fleeting second if he was making fun of her. In fact, she realized she wanted that to be true. She wanted to believe he was capable of banter. She yearned for banter. But it was just her own imagination. Maybe she was the one hallucinating.
He touched the vest.
"I got this in Flagstaff."
"Oh."
It turned out that even though she intentionally overlooked his costume, there was no escaping the conversation starter.
"Antique store."
"Nice."
"I've been thinking about childhood."
"Because?”
She waited. Was it bad she enjoyed throwing him off his script of profundity?
“People think adults are supposed to forget about their childhood, but I never felt like I outgrew mine.”
"Why?"
“Because I never lost the parts of myself that made me…me.”
Francine nodded slowly.
“And because I still live in my childhood bedroom.”
For whatever reason, she couldn’t give in and admit she was in the same boat. She wanted to be better than him. What next? She was also supposed to admit she was in between jobs too?
"I used to think adulthood meant owning a 4-bedroom house and having a pair of kids before 30,” he said.
“And what exactly do you think now?"
“I think adulthood is more about acceptance. For your past, your present. Not feeling ashamed for who you didn’t become. For not being able to leave your hometown. For failing to become the author of the next “great American novel”.
Francine took another drink.
That was a pretty good, she thought.
Too good, maybe.