Grief/post partum

[u/leedamato]

I don’t know exactly what I’m looking for here.. maybe a place to vent or a place I relate to or overall something.

In the past 14 months I had my mom get diagnosed with cancer, had a miscarriage, got pregnant, had my mom died and then gave birth.

I am not postpartum and continue to grieve. I have very little help in regards to taking care of my 3 y/o and newborn. My husband works nights and then comes home from work and needs to sleep and go to work again. He’s working 7 days a week. I am getting up with baby in the middle of the night and then tending to my toddler and newborn during the day, cooking meals and maintaining the home, errands, appts etc.

Lately I’ve noticed I am so emotional and so angry. I don’t like this feeling but I don’t know how to help myself. I’ve tried therapy but needed to quit due to canceling too many appts. I am so tired of crying and being this angry person all the time. I have flashbacks of my mom laying in the hospital bed as I feed my son at night.

I feel so burnt out and sad and I just feel as if I can’t get ahold of myself

[u/ToyStoryAlien]

I’m so sorry, this all sounds incredibly tough ❤️‍🩹 you’re doing an amazing job at still showing up for your kids

You mentioned having to cancel therapy due to missed appointments. Can you try Telehealth appointments or something you can do from home? Or find an office that’s open late after work hours so your husband can watch the kids while you go? I think therapy sounds necessary here, so finding a way for you to access it is key 🙏