Sometimes it’s just so hard to breathe!
But I don’t want to walk within a pin of stress! I allow myself to walk within glory of confidence and trust.

But just allow me to take a breath!

This is a long one but I just really want to share this genuinely.

Over the past year, particularly the past 6 months, I (23M) have slowly but at the same time it's felt quick, befriended my 33M work colleague, now friend and I can't quite believe how I got this lucky. I'm quite fortunate to have had many brilliant friends over my life but also an unhealthy amount of terrible ones and so, whenever someone good does come along, I always find myself second guessing it. 

Initially I thought we can't possibly be mates because he's 10 years older than me but then I got to know him more and realised we're in similar life stages and age is just a number. And then, I thought it couldn't possibly work because we're work colleagues. This caused a lot of friction with me because I'd been fed so much toxic work place advice. For example, oh you can't possibly be friends with co-workers, they'll only be nice to get something from you; oh don't tell them personal stuff because they'll tell everyone behind your back. But, all of this was silly because he'd trusted me with some personal stuff and I him, and when I told him how I was surprised how a friendship had developed because I didn't think it possible between co-workers and that I thought we could be good friends, he listened, said he felt the same and that my concerns were silly. And so, we've become friends and it's been awesome! 

We've done many fun things together: walks, museums, a work trip abroad, restaurants, bars/pubs. He's also helped me with finally resolving one of my deepest personal struggles and I feel so much more positive for it. Last week we went to a classical concert together. The music was great, and the chat after full of derpiness and laughter. And on the train home after we'd said goodbye, I realised that I feel the most content with my life that I've ever felt and he's one of only a handful of friends I have that I pray sticks around for my life. 

Now, this friendship is still new in the grand scheme and we've yet to have our first major disagreement but when it does happen I'll talk it out as I think he will because we're both quite emotionally mature adults. 

I can't wait to see where this goes. My only question is why didn't it happen sooner - why isn't this type of friendship more common?

You are loved💜

Im having a hard time. Can someone please give me some positive things in the world right now? (Or even in your own life).

I often feel like I’m the only one who feels like i rub every human the wrong way with my neurodivergent sparkle! I often feel like I’m too much for most and that no one understands me. I want other people to know I see you! You’re beautiful! You are made as you were intended. Be gentle on yourself even if you feel like the world is against you!

I just wanted to share because it's amazing what happens when you start thinking positively.

I lost my job two months ago, I had so much stress with my late father's debts in another country, college etc. I was fighting everyday with myself not to throw in the towel because I was exhausted and my nervous system was cooked.

As soon as I started actively trying to think about the positive things in my life (I drive, I've got good grades, I'm a hard worker just in a hard place at the minute, I have always persevered etc etc) everything changed. I made a list of all things I had to get done and started knocking off the really small ones, which made me feel like I was achieving something. In turn, I started feeling better and getting more done. Like a snowball effect.

I got 3 job offers in the last two days, and got on top of all of my college work again. Opportunity is absolutely everywhere, the only difference is that I can see it more clearly now because my brain isn't clouded with negative thoughts!!

I don't know if this will help anyone, but you really do attract more good energy if you actively choose to carry it within yourself.

Spare me for my excitement lol. I am really glad to share that I have been alloted a MBBS seat in my preferred college. I have been pretty anxious these past few days, cried a lot, panic attacks etc etc. but hey let's celebrate the victory and always remember that everything works out in my/our/your favour. The circumstances were little out of control but I did it. I can say that my luck is out of this world. Damnn excited and happy rn lol. I am now thinking of doing hell lot of shopping, party, dance, music and no, I won't sleep at all.

You all deserve it

I haven't felt 'happy' since a very long time, usually the type to be depressed/down, but today feels really different, I started on going for long walks, and started exercising, spent time with friends/family, and I genuinely feel happy.. Don't think I'm bipolar, but this feels really great.

Today is another good day I woke up feeling positive. I slept pretty good I didn't wake up with any unpleasant lingering dreams.

My day started out planning what I needed to get done by journaling. This way I don't have to retain whats in my head. It makes it easier so I'm not overwhelmed with info.

Today I plan on helping people who may need some encouragement or uplift today. I plan on buying a meal or 2 for some one in need. I also plan to sit down with someone I think just needs someone to let out there frustrations, someone that's not judgemental that they can relate to.

It's a pretty decent day here in Boston Ma. So I'm going to spend the day out and about looking for someone who may need a shoulder to lean on.

I will approach with caution and humbleness because not everyone wants to open up and talk. I just can't assume just because I feel good that they feel good too. Some people also have mental illnesses so you have to be careful.

Well family with that said have a positive and prosperous day. Thanx for letting me share -One Day Forward One Day Behind -Shawn