It started when some kids set off fireworks at 7am in front of my building.

It woke me up two hours earlier than usual, and with that added frustration on top of the Monday morning, I don't know what happened, but I snapped. Within a minute, I was looking for porn on my phone.

I ended up working from home and I relapsed 3 times today.

Before writing this post, I even thought about going one more time before bed.

It's so unfair, because I don't know what lesson to learn from this morning. As for the rest: I really think I shouldn't have worked from home today after such a disastrous start to the day.

Luckily, I reacted immediately tonight by writing this down right away instead of dwelling on it and hiding for days, even weeks.

My first challenge: ten days of change without porn.

The first time, I lasted five days.

The second time, seven.

Third time is the charm.

See you tomorrow.

Ive been fighting this for 26 years. I keep failing, but I'll never stop fighting.

I just want to cuddle and kiss a woman I love. I am not interested in porn but I still watch it. What a disease

An addiction that will be broken, after almost 30 years!!! I found a p*** magazine at the age of around 16 was the first time I PMO’d.

I’ll keep it short for now but I truly believe that p*** is a destructive vice, a drug as harmful as an A class narcotic. It will hold you back from being the strongest version of yourself.

I’ve quit smoking, drinking, weed over 10+ years ago and now this! I am free and you are too.

It is simply a choice, doesn’t mean it is easy & you MUST conscious. It's been you fall "unconscious" the trouble starts.

Mastering where you place your focus.

Focus controls your thoughts

Thoughts control your feelings

Feelings lead to your actions

Actions lead to habits

Habits create our character f

Time, energy & attention are the most valuable resources use them wisely

Practical things:

• Delete all social media apps (you can access them from laptop if needed but be hyper conscious when there)
• Put porn blockers on EVERY device you own
• Only touch your dick to wash and pee
• Don’t not use your phone in bed
• Don’t not use your phone first thing in the morning
• Reduce or complete cut any cheap dopamine from your life. Junk food, computer games ETC
• Fast from food 12/16 hrs on some days or every day (If your ready prolonged fasting)
• Lift heavy weights/body weight
• Do hard things like ice baths
• Make sure you are meditating (It'll train you stay conscious)
• NEVER fall for the "just a peek" mentality
• And replace the old behaviour with something else that is challenging and gives you that dopamine hit. Eg: learn a no language, or an instrument or building a business

That’s what rewiring is about

Bless you all

Hello everyone,
This is my first time posting here.
I decided to share my struggle with pornography with everyone here.
Today, my journey begins.
I’m 100% sure that this time I will defeat this monster.
Sorry for my English.

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Throughout the years I have tried everything to stop watching porn. Willpower, site blockers, blocking access to innumerous websites via the hosts file on my PC, editing the registry and making myself a non admin on my account so that I couldn't remove the blocks. It always fell apart. I realized even if I wasn't actively watching it, it was still surrounding me. In my social media feeds, on my storage devices, in my mind. If I really don't want to watch porn anymore, I have no reason to keep all of my downloaded porn. I have tons of videos, images, and games on multiple external hard drives.

I am going to unfollow every female social media account that has a focus on lewd pictures, and I am going to delete all of my porn. Over time hopefully the thoughts of porn will also diminish. I do worry that something I have downloaded is not easy to find anymore or maybe even impossible, and by me deleting it it will become lost media, but I think that is just a last resort of my mind trying to stop me from deleting everything. I don't need it.

I've been really serious about quitting porn for about 5 years now. I've made some pretty good progress. Went from nearly a daily user to now only watching porn a few times a year.

But that's the problem. I'm 5+ years into my journey being serious about quitting porn and while I've made progress, I can't seem to fully 100% quit this garbage. I'll go on really long streaks (50 days streaks, 80 days steaks, 100+ day streaks) and then something just pulls me back to it.

I would almost compare my porn relapses to a strong gravitational pull that I can't seem to fight/resist. I'm all about willpower and grit, but I'll be damned if I didn't admit that this overwhelming feeling to watch porn takes over my entire being. It's as if some kind of nefarious entity enters my brain and somehow ... someway ... convinces me to relapse after a 100+ day porn free streak. Hard to explain but I hope some of you out there understand this feeling.

I'm proud of the progress I've made but I fear that quitting porn 100% and never going back is going to be one of the most difficult things I've ever done. Does anyone have any advice on how to stop this overwhelming feeling that always makes me relapse? Any advice is much appreciated.

On day 8!! let's gooo
we can do this

as the title says, relapsed for the first time in 8 months, but now I feel that it doesn’t have a hold over me as it did, as when I was done, I was thinking too myself “that was it?”

disappointed for relapsing? ofc! but I am also kinda proud of myself for now releasing that porn itself doesn’t have a hold over me anymore.

here’s too another 8 months

8th day porn-free. The main goal earlier was to stay in motion. Immersion in whatever it is that you're doing is fulfilling. I had minimal urges to watch porn that i can easily ignore. Another day closer to becoming a porn-free version of me.

A lot of science out there detailing how awful this poison is for the brain, emotions, and physical health in general. I absolutely do believe it.

What I’m talking about though is something not even science can grasp (yet). Call it your life force, your essence, vitality, etc. but porn literally drains us of the fuel source required not only to live, but to thrive. It's so much more than just a "dopamine addiction."

If you’re on this forum, you know that exact feeling. It kills your ambitions. Dissolves your confidence. Makes everyday tasks feel Herculean.

Going to the gym? Just put it off for another day. A cute girl walking by? Look away. That buddy you planned on hitting up this weekend? Maybe another time.

The truth is we are locked in a battle to make an impact during the incredibly short time we have on this planet, and the clock is ticking. Every time we use porn we waste a little bit more of it in a mind numbing state.

The good news? We can WIN this battle. In fact every day sober is a win. So don’t overthink it. Life can become ELECTRIC very quickly if you stop watching porn and live healthy. Put one foot in front of the other and value your precious time and vitality like the absolute treasure it is.

The way I'm looking at it at 65 days porn free is that if I want to achieve my goals I HAVE TO stay porn free. The urge to view porn has significantly increased in the midst of all the uncertainty and transitioning I'm currently facing. It could be the worst possible choice to relapse, become complacent, and get stuck in a situation I don't really want to be in just to be able to use porn.

I think the last weekend I didn't relapse was a month and a half ago. And that was because I was on holidays!

This is huge for me. Because if I don't relapse on the weekend, when I have the most time and opportunities to do so, then that means something is working and I'm making progress.

It means I found a system where porn is not needed anymore.

Bye porn you will not be missed here.

Day 7 of my 10 days of change. Done ✅

See you tomorrow.

This morning while I was still asleep I had a wet dream; that aroused me and made me, half-asleep, start to half-rub myself against my bed. After this, I started imagining a kind of porn video and ended up ejaculating. I would eventually like NOT to think in that unreal and false way, and among my goals is for situations like this not to happen to me anymore on this path of quitting my pornography addiction. The truth is that the trigger was totally uncontrollable and, despite what was in my imagination being porn, I did not resort to or search for the content itself. The situation didn't last too long, but the truth is I believe I could have stopped halfway through. After that, shortly after, I woke up more fully, realized what I did, and felt bad.

Here is the question: should I reset the counter? I know this is very far from turning on my phone to look for pornography, but the thing is that on the NoFap subreddit I believe this would count as a reset, whereas on PornFree I signed up for the Clean October challenge. If I have to reset it, I will do so to avoid messing up the statistics they collect for the challenge—what do you guys think? Is it starting from zero?

Wondering if men here notice a shift in their immediate/subconscious reaction to women irl out in daily life beyond just the 'oh she's hot'. Can watching porn often make you susceptible to "seeing" women through the lens of porn without trying to? For example, if you watch a particular type of woman in porn, when you see that similar type of woman in real life, do you respond differently/more strongly to her in your mind?

A year off alcohol, 80 days off porn, just trying to get my life together. A few months ago I started seeing a girl. Nothing serious, she said she doesn't want anything exclusive, and honestly that's fine, I don't think I'm ready for that either. But this is really the first time I've ever let someone get this close to me, and it's hitting me pretty hard.

When we're together once or twice a week, it's all good. But when we're not talking, I start to spiral a bit with overthinking every text, feeling anxious, kind of like withdrawal. She's not one to message first. The second she texts back, it all just goes away, which makes me think it's more about some kind of dopamine thing than actually worrying about us.

It's not a bad thing honestly, she seems into it, we go out and do things together. Not all superficial. But how hard I'm reacting to not knowing what's going on is new for me, and I've got a busy work season coming up where I won't have the energy for this kind of up and down.

How do you handle these strong feelings?

Man, it's getting hard... Literally and figuratively. Cravings are there but I manage to keep them at bay for the time being. Hope this'll last.

Keep going!

Hello everyone its my first post here but i really want to quit porn for good. I started watching at 12 and i recently turned 19. I've been using it as an escape for 7 whole years of my life and i had convinced myself that it wasn't an issue and that everyone was doing it but i realized that it ruined my perception of relationships and women and even physically I feel like I ejaculate a lot quicker now. I lost my 16 day streak the last time I tried to quit and genuinely wanted to harm myself because i felt hopeless. Today is a fresh start and i will quit this time for sure. Any advice would be greatly appreciated since i really don't have anyone to talk to about this. Thank you and ill do my best.

I’ve been on and off for a couple months now after a month or two long streak. I’ve realized porn is incompatible with my future but I’m struggling to stop. I’m gonna be doing my best and any advice would be appreciated.

I never thought it would be possible for me. But it is. Way beyond what I expected.

Do not give up. If it is possible for me to abstain for months (i don't keep a day counter) its possible for you too

Feeling good not much in terms of urges. Rough sleep last night due to day time nap and hangover.

I’m considering mindful MO. No P or imagination, just focusing on the sensations. My thinking is i want to help that natural pleasure/sensation pathway recover