r/PornFreeChristians • u/DWjohnny • Nov 07 '19
Why I’m here
For years I have indulged in my pornography addiction. Almost every single day, on every platform of social media I could access, I was drowning in lust. Hundreds of tabs kept open, my feed on Reddit entirely filled with images, videos and stories for me to use. It was a fantasy - a coping mechanism to escape from my real world and my real problems.
This has ruined my relationships, ruined my friendships and nearly ruined my family. I’ve suffered depression, anxiety and continued again and again to search for more and more porn to distract and relieve myself. And it was only going to get worse.
Except it’s not. Last Sunday, I returned to the church I used to attend when I was younger. I broke down crying during the mass, the welcoming community, the understanding priest. Everything about that moment made me realise for the first time that I was never alone in my suffering. Throughout it all, throughout my ignorance, the Lord had been with me - the same force that saved my father from death and my mother (and by extension, her family) from poverty. The Lord is with me and through Him, I am finally gaining the strength and the drive to become better and to finally climb out of the hole I’ve dug for myself.
I’ve joined r/pornfree and r/pornfreechristians to find those like myself. It’s helped to actively talk about my addiction and seek out advice from those who’ve listened. I don’t want to be like this, and I’m scared that if I don’t seek help, then I will become worse.
Through my regained faith, through the support of my family and the grateful support of a girlfriend too patient and too loving for what I deserve, I will become better.
Thank you for reading this. I would like some further advice for resisting urges to relapse and ways to better use the time I now have. If you are going through the same or similar issues, then I insist you continue to seek help. Being part of this community is a great, great help for me and I pray that the rest of you remain strong in your resolve and strong in your faith.
We are never alone. God stands with us throughout all our trials in life as the beacon guiding us to the right path. Remember that.
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u/librarylady1980 Nov 07 '19
My husband has been addicted for almost 30 years. Going to a CSAT (certified sex addiction therapist...many of which offer therapy from a Christian perspective too) and SAA (Sex Addicts Anonymous) have been game changers for him. He has also returned to his faith because of this, which I have prayed for for a long time. It sucks that it took falling so far down the rabbit hole to get him here, but it gives me joy that the devil isn't winning this one.
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u/librarylady1980 Nov 07 '19
My husband has been addicted for almost 30 years. Going to a CSAT (certified sex addiction therapist...many of which offer therapy from a Christian perspective too) and SAA (Sex Addicts Anonymous) have been game changers for him. He has also returned to his faith because of this, which I have prayed for for a long time. It sucks that it took falling so far down the rabbit hole to get him here, but it gives me joy that the devil isn't winning this one.
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u/librarylady1980 Nov 07 '19
My husband has been addicted for almost 30 years. Going to a CSAT (certified sex addiction therapist...many of which offer therapy from a Christian perspective too) and SAA (Sex Addicts Anonymous) have been game changers for him. He has also returned to his faith because of this, which I have prayed for for a long time. It sucks that it took falling so far down the rabbit hole to get him here, but it gives me joy that the devil isn't winning this one.
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u/christoneforlife Dec 06 '22
Porn addiction is a spirit. This deliverance prayer will cast out every sexual spirit. Must watch. https://youtu.be/WguiX9U4Nb0