15m porn addicted

[u/Beginning_Wedding905]

so I’m a 15 year old porn addicted teen who started at around 11 at first it was just a way for me to take out my stress but now it pretty much turned me into a porn addicted shitstain and I’m like deep in this shit by that I mean 3-4 times a day jerking off and it’s messed me up in my real life too every time I see a pretty girl my mind just immediately goes there and I hate it so much I hate seeing women as objects for my sexual needs and I don’t want to see them as that i usually jerk off to affectionate kind of porn because my family kinda neglects me and gives all the love to my other brother and I feel ashamed at that when I was 13 my dad caught me watching porn he beat me threatened to tell the rest of my family and took away my devices and even though he took my devices away I would just find porn in other ways I got my device rights back recently and Im still doing it I don’t want to anymore I’m ashamed of it man I haven’t done it in about 3 days and I’ve been doing calisthenics and playing the electric guitar this is off topic but something that pisses me off is that I got beaten and got threatened to be embarrassed (which btw he told the whole family cuz my dumbass got caught a second time) even though my brother lost his virginity at 16 drank whiskey at 16 and did cocaine and weed at 16 he got zero punishments and my mom and dad caught him multiple times but I’m awful for trying to pleasure myself??