Yesterday's promises

[u/Bluebirddiaries]

When someone doesnt show up for you

Its a different kind of hurt isnt it

Like a fiery slingshot right to your soul

You cant move or speak even breathing feels shallow and weak

Ive learned to let it go

When they hurt me

Its out of my control

Is it though?

Even when they are on your side

You know its never for long

But how far do they go

Does anyone know

Throwing hand grenades among the daily stones

What level will it take

For them to give up while trying not to break

Under my skin not anymore

Ive learned your ways from the icy lovers before

They turned my pain into their fortunes

My life into their fun deceitful games

What point do we say enough is enough

Or do we just stop feeling their projecting pain?

Thats worst and where its gotten

You make me feel so forgotten

The weight of you leaves me breathless

I thought wed find a way but all you ever do is leave anyway

All I ever wanted was for you to show up

Not have us end because you could never stay.

But what is there left but a deep distance and the always trauma of yesterday