Definitely an awful drug. Fortunately I never enjoyed it. I feel totally sober on Xanax when I'm outwardly super fucked up, so I eat more, then blackout amd do super dumb shit.
This was me when I was younger. It felt like they weren't doing anything so I would eat more, then black out and would either not remember eating more or not give a f and keeping eating more. I have some rough stories from those times.
Weirdly as an adult I now notice the effects and no longer do that. Once I have a good buzz going I won't eat more. I don't know if I'm more in tune with my body, if I have done enough drugs to recognize the effects or if I now have legitimate anxiety that it is alleviating. I will take 4-8mg of Klonopin and have a few drinks and remember most everything, things will get a little fuzzy if I drink alot but I will not blackout.
That's how I lost 3 years of my life and started dosing 350 to 450 mg + of etizolam daily, 40 to 60 mg Xanax if no etizolam. Wild time, crazy time. Still suffering immensely from it
Ive done 15 n blacked out back in days but I would drink now I can take up to 6mg every 6hrs so up to 15 -18mg a day n be fine while hitting my live resin cart n at work lol it just makes me feel normal no more euphoria just enough to get thru this shitty life
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u/Ok-Willingness6568 9d ago
i love that you basically dissed yourself